Wednesday, June 10, 2009
..you're just a ghost
current mood:
- Sick
listening to: Erika Sawajiri - Taiyou no Uta
It was the roar of the crowd
that gave me heartache to sing
It was a lie when they smiled
and said, "you won't feel a thing"
You're just a sad song, with nothing to say..
- Disenchanted, My Chemical Romance
I have sore throat and I hate how it makes me feel weaker.
I seriously feel like the weight of the world has got into my shoulders and my body feels really heavy that its even hard for me stand up for a couple of minutes.
And since Im doing bass for a band, its quite hard for me to have it both standing or while Im just sitting. Well, bass guitar was naturally heavy and how awkward that someone as tiny as me, playing it while the other guys in the band were literally guys and taller. Im sort of comfortable using that monster guitar though Im enjoying learning more. Oh well.. I just hope it wont split my bones while doing it.
Ughh. Seriously, I hate having sore throats! It practically ruins my appetite and energy. Its as if Im worst than a A-H1N1 virus infected person. And speaking of which, the number of patients are gradually increasing and its making me worried as fuck. Ive been kind of paranoid when Im outside the house, trying to avoid to catch a cold or even the slightest fever. Its really hard to tell if the person beside you right now is already the carrier of that infamous virus.
Anyway, my mood kind of lightened up after watching a couple of episodes from Lovely Complex. Its an anime with a cute love story. Though it also made me cry. Jeez, thats my weakness.. once I saw something that is very touching, no matter how random it is, Id be teary-eyed. I dunno why I cant help it, probably because I tend to put myself in those scenes and then Ill realize how Ive been so sad and hopeless.
I just wish this would end soon. Im really growing tired of listening to my own heartaches and complaints.Being all fucked up like this is just.. sickening, y'know?
(aghh. damnit. another rant.)
