listening to: アリス九號 [alice nine.] - Discotheque (audio ripped)
After dying for more than a week, Im back from the grave now. Well, actually..not. Because I just cant abandon my blog for weeks, y'know? This have been already my outlet for my crappy rants and whatever I want to babble about.
This is a picture of Red Tea Strawberry Smoothies I bought from this new stand called Tea Tree. I got curious so I tried it. Its quite good but I still prefer Tea Zone.
Anyway, though Ive been feeling all negative and blah, Thank God, Ive been getting good grades to my past exams and quizzes. Seriously, my self-confidence drained when I was two. I might look tough but Im really afraid to go out alone. Friends, God and music + food are the only reasons Im keeping up. Err.. family? I do laugh with them. Its fun joking around with them when they're in the mood. But I still cant open to them.. I dunno why.. Though Ive been close to them now than how rebellious I am before, I still cant find the courage to tell them everything. Well.. I might just let things this way.. Im fine with how much my mom and the rest knows whats up with me. Me, mom and dad are good friends anyway. I guess thats alright for now.
But my sister? I DONT KNOW. We've been cats and dogs since she started school. I cant get her. She hates me. She's irritated when we're in the same room so Ill just sleep at my grandma's. She yells at me when she's mad. She humiliates me everytime. She badmouths me, throws things in my face and curses me if she likes it. She laughs at my mistakes but never hesitates to come to me when she needs my help. I think she havent learned what 'respect' means. A betch, eh?
Im really that sensitive when people treats me like that. Thats why I cant help but look for a sister through my girl-friends. Most of them never appreciates me the way I do to them but thats fine with me, as long as I can stay with them. Maybe all I need was the attention. But not the wh0re-like attention or the popularity. One more reason why Im more attached to my virtual friends. Like my Twinsie Heidi, I believe in her. We've been close friends for more than a year now and both of us were too giddy to meet each other sooner or later, if chances permits. :) And Gracie. She's awesome. We're both maadd crazy about Alice Nine. I can tell her almost everything. Its cool. I can say, she's one of my closest friends too.. and these two girls are for real.
I have more of them but I cant talk about each of them here. It'll take me forever to write on how good they've been to me. But one thing's for sure, Ill always be the 'Gen' you met. :]
SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEECH! Enough of the mushy stuff. Im feeling alright now. As long as my sister wont be mean and rude to me for atleast a week, life would be beautiful.