Thursday, January 1, 2009
..will i make it?
current mood:
- Tired
listening to: アリス九號 - CROSS GAME
Happy New Year!
Hope everyone had fun throughout 2008 though Im not sure I had.
Atleast, Im fine with how my new year's eve went with my family. I got a bit bored and shit on 31st but its nice to celebrate it outside my place though it feels really different because Im not really used on going out of town every New Year. This is probably the first time we went out to spend it with my other relatives. We went to my Aunt's and Grandma [dad's side] then had a picnic at the peek of Tagaytay where the place overviews the Taal Lake and volcanoes and Batangas and awesome places I cant recognize. It was really cold there and the fog's just above my head, so its almost raining too.
Anyway, as for the first day of New Year, Im feeling okay till I went online. I dont really get it why people keep on bashing and badmouthing you from behind and not confront you instead. I just found a couple of mean bulletin posts on Friendster and Im sure its about me. I just shrugged it off of me. I dont have to bother about them because basically, I dont live for them and I know Im atleast not doing anything against them.
And then this old pal messaged me on MySpace.
I got so excited on writing back but when I was trying to send my reply, it wont. Im still blocked and it broke my heart. Ive got so much to tell but he wont let me. :(
Alot of things really has changed for the past year.
And whatever mistakes Ive done, sure I cant take them back.. now all I want to do this 2009 is work hard and try to be better. Ive been fearfully facing my life eversince and I want to get myself a bag of self-esteem and confidence. I want to learn new stuff and pass my major exams. I cant fail. I shouldnt. I must not.