..for whatever its worth, you're not seeing it
current mood:
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Apathetic
watching Taiyou no Uta & Hana Kimi SPHi there, bloggie. :)
Yes, Im only talking to my blog since I know
no one would even bother to read my posts.
And Im fine with it.
Anyway, Im indeed watching Taiyou no Uta and Hana Kimi SP right now at the same time. Well, both needs to buffer first and Im sort of impatient on waiting thats why Im making a new post for today.
On the other hand, I also want to babble about something..
Something thats been bothering me for the past few weeks..
I MISS MY BESTFRIENDS. They're sucha busy persons and it cant be helped. But I swear, Ill spend Christmas with them and it would be hella fun.
But thats not really my point.. Im bothered of how these people are treating me for the past few days.. though I must say that Im already used on how they would ignore me, I think its starting to really get on my nerves. I feel like Im only their shadow then they would complain of how much my own-little-world eats me for not joining them.
Im always a listener. I listen to whatever they want to tell me because Im a good friend.. though Im being mean sometimes but thats not the case. Im bothered because I feel like Im always the left-out, the least favorite and the very outdated. Like when one of us needs to go to the bathroom, they would patiently wait till we're walking altogether. But if its me, they would just leave me. Its sort of unfair to my side because I would never do that. And I hate how I cant even tell them how I really feel about it.Now you cant blame me for sticking with my so-called world because thats my only and last resort. None of you gets me because Im a weird-psycho who mumbles Japanese phrases. And Im nowhere fitted to your world of fun.
Im sucha hideous person. I know it. You dont have to tell straight to my face how much of a loser I am. If you're reading this because you love to hate me and this post means to you that Im very defeated in life, then go on. This is my life anyway and I dont care anymore how much you criticize me. And for the record, I still love those people Im talking about.
..but I cant be bothered anymore.