current mood: - Blank listening to: Alice Nine - Q. (Question.)
Its been a week or so since I last had my entry here. I wish I could update this everyday but Ive been feeling really fucked up. Whenever I already felt the urge to write down something in here, Ill look for chances to get online, but whenever Im already infront of this monitor, Ill lose everything in my mind. Well, not really everything but all thats left was crappy rants and drama Ive been trying to avoid.
Ugh. This is really tiring. No matter how much I want to change for good, I would still be bothered with random thoughts.. mostly about how I hate the state where I am now. My family sucks. My life here with them sucks more. I wish I could get a life on my own now. Or is it running away? The hell I care. I just want some place where a day in my life would pass without being yelled and kicked behind.
I hate how everyday in my life, Ill be thinking over and over again what to do with my life. I feel so alone. Is this what it means to be an adult? Because if it is, Id rather go back to my mom's womb and never come out alive.
ps;; I just signed up for Twitter. I guess it would be helpful this time for me since Ive been really useless and fucked up on typing down decent entries here.