Wednesday, February 11, 2009
..im not o-effing-kay!
current mood:
- Exhausted
Im basically disappointed and worried right now.
And I just went online here to atleast shout these things out from me. Ive been extra busy and failed.
I havent been to my Friendster account yet, the last time I checked, my last login was 6days already and expect for more absence.
I actually dont know now how to deal with college anymore, basing on how Ive been since I started my majors, Im not this stupid before. I feel dumb and very much confused. I hate how my school gets all the money while Im not learning anything useful for my major exams. ITS ALL FUCKeD UP! And right now? Im [seriously] in deep shizt. And whats stressing me more, my stupid school wont allow rechecking our test papers. We use bubble[not literal] sheets to put our answers there and they have this machine to check it and they keep on insisting that its very much accurate. Well, yeah.. it saves time and effort rather than checking each student's paper manually but its still a stupid idea! What if the machine's malfunctioning and it cant read a light shaded answer on the sheet, it would be unfair if the student will receive a failing grade while her paper's containing almost perfect score. And thats our major dilemma right now. Out of all the 4 major exams I took, I think I only passed 1 or 2 of them, and thats not sure yet because I havent received the last one..
ITS VERY DEPRESSING.
My mate even thought about killing her self because of depression and disappointment but Im sure she wont end her life just like that.
FuCK YOU, EVERYONE THERE RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS!
YOU'RE SHRINKING US!
None on my class passed the midterms. I guess only 2 or 3 persons except this one subject where my professor is pretty generous but thats not enough to be relaxed. Im not good at anything anymore. So pretty much, Im worried if Ill be included to those very lucky people who'll get to wear togas by March.
Midterms was only 3days ago and now I only have 2 more days to convince myself and cram again for my Final Exams this Saturday and Sunday. My friends were planning to join the Foundation Day celebration of our school, I want too, because Gracie would be there and I want to hangout with her again, but the heck! If Ill get myself wasted on Friday, what does good Lord have for me by Saturday? I cant rely to my prayers alone but Im not even prepared to take the exam.
*sighs*
*sighs deeply*
*sighs more*
Ill go now and try reading my books again and calling every saint.
I miss my friends already.. :(