Anytime, anywhere, I think about you.

Ahoy, tharr!

2011-07-20T07:18:00.002+08:00

So, this is the first time in years after my last post. Hahaha!
It's been a long asssssss time! If I wouldn't check my last post's date, I wouldn't know and would probably be surprised it was that long. Lawl.

Anyway, why am I writing again?
Basically, Im pissed with this so-called friend that I don't know anymore if I should consider her as one. Second, my boyfriend didn't showed up at my workplace when we're supposed to have breakfast together. Lastly, I'm not in the mood anymore to perform on July 31 (for KFest Annual Event).

Why, yes! I am a performer now! HAHA! Ive been with a group called Nine Flames. We're a tribute group for Girls' Generation. The group started December 2009 and I joined them February of 2010. I don't know why I'm explaning this but yeah, just to let you guys know. kekeke~

I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO TYPE ANYMORE. WTF.
I haven't been doing this in the longest time so I got pretty rusty. =)
But I've missed this.. I miss my old self where I would spazz non-stop (alone) over Alice Nine and SS501. Doing nothing at home but watch JDramas/Anime all day. Things have changed. My life has drastically changed from being a simple Nursing student to a part of a dance cover group.

Everything was unexpected. I've suffered, cried and matured alot. Met alot of fake people and found true ones. But hey, although my life's a bit shitty, Im proud that Im STILL BEING ME. :))

<3

PS: Gonna write more soon..

HOP IN!

2009-12-04T10:01:00.001+08:00

http://hanjineul.tumblr.com

say, its official.

2009-12-01T16:04:00.001+08:00

I MOVED TO TUMBLR.

Sorry my dear blogger, I feel like switching to Tumblr because its more handy and easy to use. So yes, stalk me here.

hiatus

2009-10-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

YES, IM DECLARING

HIATUS MODE TOO!

Just like Christine, I have to focus on my studies too. I think Ling's gonna be doing the same thing, and its seems like its the current trend now so Im joining! LOL. Lets all meet by December then? :D

I sort of live in Twitter, so you can catch me there or more likely, my small updates and rants. HAHA. Chyeah. See yah.

..frontman of my favorite VK band

2009-09-26T20:29:00.003+08:00

OMGZ! Im not planning to post anything today, but when I saw this from a random fangirl in ameblo.jp, I cant help but share.

WHATS HAPPENING TO SHOU?! Since when he started patronizing this kind of hairstyle and losing weight? Was it just a month or so ago when muscles are building up around his arms? Ohshit. He cant be anorexic or something! And the Shou I know wouldnt let his hair this messy! Where's your flat iron, man? Dont you love using it on you and Pon's?

It makes me feel bad when a person I look up to the most is having health issues. Well, I think Japan's still not Swine Flu-free because Kim Hyung Joong(member of SS501, which is my current boyband fetish) caught AH1N1 virus when he went to Japan to promote his music.

Okay, since I already mentioned SS501, here's an introduction about them.

The Group. Arent they cute? :)

this is Kim Hyung Joong. OMG. Im so flailing over this guy. xD

and Kim Hyung Joon. Another eyecandy on the same band. I love it when he sings and dance.

They're famous in Korea(of course). But I heard, two other members went somewhere or something that Im not sure of. Im not yet updated with this group as Im currently busy trying hard to concentrate on studies but keeps on failing not to check stuffs online and fangirl over their videos and music. xD

Okay, here's UR Man, and Im going gaga over the dance steps. (a MV without the 2 other members)

And Deja Vu, one of my favorite MVs of them because Hyung Joong sang the first part and I love it when he looks fierce. *kyaa~!*

Well, you cant blame me for falling over these Korean hotties, because obviously, they're good looking and talented. Just like 2NE1, that girl group's really addicting too. Ive been listening to Kpop lately while waiting for Alice Nine and theGazette release a new stuff. Heh.

Okay, so this Kpop update isnt intentional, I just mentioned a boyband and now I cant stop bragging about them. I should be going now. There's still alot of studying to do. *punches own face*

Oyasumi~.

..yayy! new post! bricked

2009-09-25T23:49:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Okay

listening to: the heavy rain outside

OH HAI! TADAIMA! ^o^

Well, I just thought of updating this ~~shit~~ because Christine made me so happy. She made a new layout!! OMGZ! And its all about SAGA-BANANA! xDD *nosebleeds*

Ill put up the codes later. :)

You know, what? Im such a bad student. The last few days, Ive been slacking off again considering that I still have so much to study. Blame the internet, please. Every after class, Ill arrive home with very tired eyes, so Ill just eat my lunch then sleep.. it should just be a nap but it takes me hours to wake up until my senses are satisfied with my bedrest. xD

Studying is unhealthy sometimes. It makes you look old, forget about your meal, and your face will be oily. Ugh. Well, it cant be helped because I need to pass this exam Ill be taking. My friends already wished me luck and said "you can do it!", but for me, I dont think they understand what Im going through right now. If you're not a Nursing student studying in Philippines, you wouldnt know how painful it is for someone like me to cram everyday.

Lets say, I still have 2 more months to review, but thats not enough! Just one topic already toasts my brain and I SERIOUSLY NEED A SPARE ONE. IF YOU CAN LET ME BORROW HALF OF YOUR CEREBRUM RIGHT NOW, I SWEAR TO GOD, ILL RETURN IT AFTER MY EXAM. Thats how desperate and frustrated I am.

I just made the list of the topics I have to study and Im posting them here. Prepare.

1. ~~The Levels of Prevention~~
2. ~~Total Parentheral Nutrition~~
3. Nursing Process
4. Republic Act 9173 (half read about it already)
5. Therapeutic Communication
6. Blood Transfusion
7. Colostomy and Tracheostomy care
8. 3-way Bottle System Chest tube Drainage
9. Intravenous Therapy
10. Nurse Code of Ethics and Ethical Principles
11. Patient's Bill of Rights
12. World Health Assembly
13. Immunization
14. Swine Flu, Melamine
15. Stages of labor
16. Leukemia
17. Breastfeeding
18. Fluids and electrolytes imbalance
19. Burns
20. Diabetes Mellitus
21. Cancer
22. Operating Room duties
23. Complications of Surgery
24. Osteoporosis
25. Neurotic Disorder
26. Psychopharmacology
27. Defense Mechanisms
28. Mental Retardation
29. Glaucoma
30. Personality Disorders

AH. Actually, thats not all of it. I just included what I just remembered but normally, everything about diseases and its drugs and interventions are what I have to study. Goodness gracious, help me survive. >_<

Anyway, enough about cramming. I want to share my latest endeavor. Its Polyvore. And I just created an account there. :) Here's the link. - I do wear the same pattern of clothes when I have the same thing available, thats why Ive been addicted on searching for new unique clothes which are mostly abundant in Thrift Shops. Second hands in good condition is not bad. I see to it that the items Im buying are worth the cash. Well, they're pretty affordable anyway, and I reconstruct the clothes when I feel like I can do something else to it. :)

I often update my Twitter whenever I create new sets. So yeah, I enjoy tweeting everyday like my life depends on it. Hoho~

Okay, here's a picture I took from Mio's webcam. I just came home from school there.

and this is the inspired look I made last night.

(the skirt isnt that slutty-short, I just pulled it up higher so webcam can capture the musical notes printed on it. :p)

Polyvore helps me decide what to wear the next day which I totally enjoy. ^^ And Jullia, suggested another site, something like polyvore. Its Looklet and its fun to mix and match the clothes there because you have a model to fit for you. But I like polyvore more because looklet has limited options. Here's my account there btw.

And before I end this entry, I want to share what I just found out. Fast and Furious 4 included theGazettE's Before I Decay! Has anyone knows that? HOW COME I DONT?! OMGZ. I HAVE TO WATCH THE MOVIE!!! I cant wait to see the whole PV too. When will it be released again?

Ive seen the first 3 movies and its awesome. I love car racing. ^^

And because Ruki being a midget that he is never fails to make ROFL, I want to share this.

BAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!! He's sooo cute when he's standing next to Aoi, most especially beside Uruha! *ducky pout*

Yoshi. Thats all for now. Arigatou for reading this. Chu~!

..thy eyes are bleeding

2009-09-20T19:56:00.002+08:00

current mood: - Drained

IM PRACTICALLY DEAD NOW. SRSLY.

I just got home from school and I thought Ill collapsed on my way home. IM TOTALLY DRAINED. A 12-straight-hours of writing down notes/listening to the lecturer, is just insane. I woke up at 5am and arrived home at 8pm. Crazyy~.

And believe it or not, the lectures I had today isnt even enough so I still have to study myself here at home but Im gonna pass on that for now. I need a friggin rest!

Oh, and since I wont stop ranting about this shit, my band decided to replace me for awhile. Means, they'll have someone to play the bass since I cant practice and attend the gigs with them until December, well, hopefully.

Agh. I need my bed now. Ill just nap then study again. (OMG. This isnt me!) >_<

PS:

Ling, I wanna see you through webcam too! MY SCHED IS UNFAIR!

..its just too much

2009-09-18T21:12:00.002+08:00

current mood: - Sore

listening to: Wonder Girls - Irony

Aww, I miss blogging. :(

Im sorry if my last entry didnt seem to make sense at all. Everytime Im in front of the computer, Im always in a hurry. The least thing I can always update right now is my Twitter. I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO! I dont know where to fucking start each day! *A*

I have so much to study. Everything about Nursing and it toasts my brain to bits and the stuff I need to work my ass on are still piling up! Its too muchh~~~!!! *A*

So the promised banner for Ling and Christine would be postpone again. Im still not sure when Ill get enough time to make one for you, guys.. but please just bare with me. :)

And wtf. My dry and itchy cough wont leave my throat! Now I cant eat this huge pack of M&M's (with peanuts) my Grandpa just gave me. ;__; I cant eat doughnuts, ice cream, frappes, or anything too sweet and frozen! ITS HARD! >_<

Ugh. I might die soon.

..la la land~

2009-09-17T23:42:00.003+08:00

Well, Im tired again so I couldnt think of anything right now besides posting something about Alice Nine. Im sorry, I couldnt help it, in spite of my busy-ass sched, I could still update my blog with such thing. Haha.

Alright, I I took a quiz about Alice Nine and here's my result.

Hohoho~

And found this pictures from Shou's blog.

First, a Saga-is-so-awesome.

And Shou, looking really weird. Is he sick or what?

I cant read his post eh.

Yoshi. Have to go back to my books.

..tiger's day!

2009-09-17T00:52:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRHTDAY TORA(WR)!

I dont care how monstrous your height is or how your penor bulges from your pants that makes me feel like a total sinner, I still love you and your band. You're so damn hot when you're performing live! Agh. The notes that you're playing to each song somewhat stands out when I listen to A9's music and I think abou you. xD Just come to my room whenever you feel like it. Haha!

Ill be VERY busy today but Ill find time to celebrate the day with you!

Much love. ~loveyouloveyouloveyouloveyou

PS:

So many things I want to write here but I just cant find enough time. Boo.

2009-09-15T01:01:00.002+08:00

SUPER BUSY AND TOO

TIRED TO USE THE INTERNET. >_<

..you say, i only hear what i want to

2009-09-11T23:13:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Stressed

listening to: YUI - Never say die

Oh hai. Im still alive. *sighs in relief*

Well, Ive been thinking about posting a new entry here days ago but the heck, I feel so exhausted each day. My hours of sleep isnt enough no matter how I tried to avoid staying up late, I still feel drowsy and groggy around 10am and 4pm. I couldnt study well if this goes on forever. Ugh! I HAVE SO MUCH TO READ!!! Its all piled up and I dont know where to start! *pulls out hair*

I cant even make the promised banner for Ling and Christine. ;__; (you guys, just bare with me, Ill make it soon.)

On the other hand, there's still good news! NEW LAPTOP IS HERE! ^o^

My grandpa already arrived this Wednesday early morning. We're already at the airport around 2am and the plane arrived past 3am. Its really chilly so I had to wear 2 jackets and knee-high socks. :p And then, as soon as we came home, everyone seemed worked up! Haha! I always wonder what brand my grandpa will buy, and he got me a HP Pavilion dv3-2150us (Entertainment Notebook PC).

13.3" (1366x768)

I seriously have no idea about gadgets and stuff so I didnt even tried asking what brand I want or whatever but Im totally fine with this one! I love the color and features! And guess what? As Im typing this, it'll be almost 9hours already from the time dad let me use this after coming home from school. Bahahaha!! He knows Im excited. xD

And yes, Im definitely tired. My eyes wants to kill me already from using them so much. I want to look for a new layout for my blog or make a background that will fit my diagonal screen or post tons of SagaxTora icons. But Im wayyy tired already. SERIOUSSSLY.

But speaking of Saga, here's his cute little toes wearing Alice Nine slippers.

how adorable! this is from Hiroto's blogpost.

jeez Lord, when are you going to let me have fair skin like that?

>_<

I shall go to bed now. I have to wake up 5:30am and I doubt that I wont be late for my review class. -_-

EDIT;;

Im sorry, I couldnt help but share this.

A LONGER PREVIEW OF BEFORE I DECAY!

Enjoy!

..you should notice that there is no other

2009-09-07T16:17:00.004+08:00

current mood: - Sick

listening to: Cherry Filter - Feel it

*coughs* Konichiwa, minna-san! *coughs*

Agh. This is terrible. I feel sick. I think it started last Friday when I overworked myself from 5AM to 2:30AM. School, Band Practice then a Live. EXHAUSTINGGG!!!

And then the next days are messed up. Waking up late and grieving. The Executive Minister of my religion just died last August 31 and the interment was this noon. Sunday is the only chance I have to go there but since it'll be the last day of Bro. Erdy's wake, half of the avenue infront of the temple was closed due to zillion of members gathered all over the place. Since the death announcement, it wont stop raining.. until now. I believe the sky is mourning as well. Its really heartbreaking for someone like me and my family whose really religious and active follower of the church. And since my grandpa will arrive this week, we might visit the grave before after picking him up at the airport. Ahh.. what a sad atmosphere.

Thats one of the reasons why Im quite bothered to update anything. And since Im not feeling really well, Ill just end this post with 2 pictures I took last Friday.

the live performance which I kind of messed up and..

my favorite necklaces. ^^

(I just transfered the Kuroshitsuji chains to a more girly necklace.)

*salutes and disappears*

EDITT;;

Ling, my twin! Ill repay that banner you made for me soon! though not as good as what you can do, Ill try my best to make you feel loved too! ;p Ill make one for Christine too! ^o^

..you should feel glad that Im still alive

2009-09-03T23:12:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Exhausted

Review Classes = Torture Chamber.

I feel sooo damn tired by the end of the day since this week started. Its like Ive been fucked by ten thousand men in 1 hour. Thats how tired I am. (though Im not really sure what it feels to be in a situation like that, or if thats even possible. LOL.)

I guess, from now on or until early December, my life would be as stressful and tragic as this. Tomorrow, my band will have a gig and they're all worked up about it while I feel like I cant even lift the bass anymore. Agh~ So yeah, Im not sure but I think that'll be my last live for awhile. Ill be refraining from attending practices and lives as much as possible to focus on my studies and teaching my student. I thought I could do it all at the same time, but its really hard. My energy drains too fucking much that even if Saga or Tora would ask me to have sex with him, I cant do it. So "ja ne" to my social life for 4 months. >_<

And oh, in case you think this blog is dead, please check out my twitter if you're too worried about me since its the easiest shit for me to update. LMAO.

Yoshi! Im going back to hell now.. itte kimasu~!

..burned out to extreme!!!

2009-09-02T23:53:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Drained

THE GATES OF HELL ARE NOW OPEN AND I JUST CAME BACK FROM THERE.

Ugh. Im soo exhausted that I cant type anymore..... but nah, Ill try my best to atleast leave an update here.

Review Classes just started. From 7am to 1pm STRAIGHT. So kudos to our lecturer at the university. They're quite something because they can stand and talk non stop about nursing + medical stuff. It feels like my brain just got fryed every after class. And then band practice. The guys keeps on composing new songs with complicated riffs and shit. They even have to lecture me about notes and principles of being a pro. WTF. And before the night ends, I have to meet my Korean student on skype to teach her English. UGH~~ It kills me. Every day was a torture and Im glad Im still here typing a new entry for my blog.

So yeah, I am damn busy. *is dead*

scratches head

2009-08-30T03:19:00.001+08:00

Does my background music for this blog works on you? I mean, does it automatically plays when you go here? I just wonder. I changed it to Mika Nakashima's Hitoiro.

..you're taking too long to respond

2009-08-30T02:04:00.009+08:00

current mood: - Okay

So I just started watching K-ON! and Pandora Hearts.

Okay, so first with K-ON!. Its a cute anime. The main character reminds me of myself. Haha! Basically, because she bums around most of the time and gets just the average grades. She doesnt know how to play the guitar but she joined the band. She loves cute things and delicious foods. LOL. Somewhat an exact definition of me. xDD I havent seen the whole anime yet, since I just decided to check it if Ill be interested or not. ;p

The OP and ED themes are cute! ^^ And so, I found my favorite band, SCANDAL, made a cover of K-ON!'s ED theme. Here's for you:

Pandora Hearts. First impression, it reminded me of Kuroshitsuji. A rich noble kid inherits this and that, encounters mysteries and yes, Shinigami exists too. Ive seen 2 episodes already but Im not hyped up enough yet to see more of it. *shrugs* Maybe because Im still waiting for a Sebastian-Michaelis-like guy appear on the anime. Hehe. Jeez, Im inlove with Sebby. ^o^ Anywhat, I havent seen everything yet so I cant say if its worth your time or not.

Anyway, I was totally moved with Kuroshitsuji's ending. I was hoping for another season but it seems impossible since Ciel Phantomhive already died until I saw this UPDATE while googling for the anime.

Junichi Suwabe, the voice actor of the Undertaker character in the anime adaptation of Yana Toboso's Kuroshitsuji manga, has revealed in a Sunday blog entry that a second season has been green-lit. Suwabe and the other Kuroshitsuji cast members had just finished their appearanceat the "Sono Shitsuji, Shūshō ~Saigo no Bansan o Anata to Tomo ni~" event to mark the end of the first season. The first season ran from October of last year until this past March.

The official website for the Kuroshitsuji animecorroborates Suwabe's report of a second anime season.

Ahh, I want more of SebbyxCiel. xDD This made me more excited! *jumps around like a retard* But wait, I wonder what will happen on the next season since Ciel already died, is there another Phantomhive or cute yet angsty kid Sebastian will serve? Aww.. ~_~

On the other hand, time to brag about some stuffs. (^o^)v

There's this store called Comic Alley where they sell alot of anime merchandise. Though the selection was really limited. More likely about Naruto, Bleach, One Piece, Death Note, Pokemon and other big-time famous. I rarely go there until I saw them posted a Kuroshitsuji Poster so I hurriedly dig their stuff. I bought 2 and 1 of Code Geass. Well, that happened weeks ago already and another week after that, I went back to buy these:

Ashford Academy Symbol (Code Geass), I fell inlove with it when I first saw that thing that also reminded me of fleur-de-lis. It was originally a keychain, but I thought it would be more fun if Ill use it as necklace!

Kuroshitsuji Rose/Key chain. I have the same exact thing only without that butterfly. Im planning to use it as a necklace too, Im just too picky what neck-lace to use.

Cute, isnt it? Somehow, those things relieves my stress when I look at them. Hehe.

Oh, and last update though Im sure this is really late but what the heck. It just took me time to take pictures since my sister's being an ass again + my computer's recently retarted. Oh well..

The color's copper and its actually a little darker. The light outside just contrasted the color a bit more thats why it looks kinda Hayley-ish. LOL.

Ah, I know, I blabbed non-sense again. I shall sleep now, church later. Ja' ne!

..oh noesss!!

2009-08-27T02:57:00.004+08:00

current mood: - Crazy

listening to: Kelly Clarkson - The day we fell apart

OH NO. I swear, I didnt mean to.. but..

ZAC EFRON JUST PWNED ME. >_<

Scenes from the movie. Which are my favorites. ;p

I didnt expect it to happen but.. ugh. Sweet baby Jesus, he got me. HOW? I watched 17 Again. (LOL) Well, it was my friend's request, she kind of begged me to watch it. The last time I went to buy a couple of DVDs, I included that movie in my shopping bag.

Seriously, IM NOT A FAN. It just happens that his hair's incredibly hot and I gotta say, I like him wayy better without Vanessa Hudgens.

Basically, I was curious with the story when my friend told me he's already 39(?) and came back home 17. The storyline was surprisingly good compared to teeny corny chick flicks like HSM. I love his hair after his makeover. Those clean white shirt and leather jacket just suits him well. So okay, my (another) kind of guy. And after seeing the movie, I realized I have a boyfriend and then I called him telling him how I was mesmerized with Mr. Efron's movie. And then he mentioned that he got a new haircut and he dyed his hair. I was like.. "WHAT?!" with glittering eyes imagining how good looking he is now. *bricked*

Ive been worrying about our relationship's falling apart but I think we're back on line, keeping it strong. *sighs* What a relief.

Alright, I have to stop my hormones from jumping up and down thinking about that movie. Ill be watching another movie, this time, its Japanese(LOL) and it stars Mika Nakashima. As if you couldnt guess.. yeah, NANA. Ill be watching it again because I love Mika in it. So as Tetsuji Tamayama and Yuna Ito. ^o^

And ahh, Im such a lesbian for Mika-chan! She's my current wallpaper. xDD Her song, ORION's playing on my mind right now as Im thinking of including her picture on this entry. Hehe.

And here she is.

What an angel~ I want that tattoo on her wrist, too bad I cant have one. -_-

And before this post ends, Ling (my virtual twin), just made me an awesome banner! ^o^

Yayy! I love you too! I wish I could pull out a strand of creativity too. Im such a noob on photoshop. >_<

Hai. This entry is done.

..kiss, kill, feel

2009-08-25T23:58:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Exhausted

listening to: THE KIDDIE - Sayonara Setsuna

WHAT A TIRING DAY!

I only slept for about 4 hours or less. My friend came over and I dyed her hair to copper. Yes, like mine and it looks really good! I put a little on my again but the black dye I used before seems pretty tough and strong that even for the 3rd time, its darkness wont budge. Oh well. Im pretty much satisfied with my hair now. I even love it more when its daylight or if there's direct light striking on my hair. LOLz.

On the other hand, Lea and I went for an adventure again after I settled accounts with my school for my Review Classes. I have NANA 2 now! ^o^ And oh, I also bought Pandora Hearts. I have no idea about its plot or whatever but I like the graphics. The seller said its better than Kuroshitsuji though I highly doubt that, I still paid for it. The saleslady also offered me 07 Ghost, and Im clueless again. Im not sure when I can go back spending so much for DVDs since my review class should start soon, Im trying hard to avoid wasting my time for nothing. Gah, why is it so hard to focus on studying? >_<

SIMS 3! DAMNIT! I already had it installed but it wont work! FCCKK!!

(okay, I swear, I wont let Sims3 distract me from studying once I got it fixed. xD)

ANND THE KIDDIE's NEW LOOK! ^o^

from this..

..to this! ~kyaaaa!!!!

Yusa's sooo cute! BISHISSS!! ^o^

Ahh, new singles then new looks! AWESOMES! Im loving THE KIDDIE more and moarr! xD

OH WAIT, ALICE NINE's releasing a new live DVD! ~kyaaaa!!

Its Untitled Vandalism Finale [Grace the Beautiful Day]. Shit. Shit. I WANT ONE FOR ONCE! I cant fcking afford for even a single merchandise of A9's! Why do I have to have one hell of a life without cash? ;__;

Im still having petty quarrels with my guy. Agh. When will this shit stop? Its really tiring, y'know? *sighs~*

And wow. Its already the last week of August. I didnt even noticed! >_<

I have to be really serious now and I couldnt help but feel nervous for Board Exam. Doom's Day, indeed. AGHHHH!!!! SO MUCH STRESSORS!!! If this wont stop, Ill die soon. x_x

..spit out and go

2009-08-23T03:14:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Sore

listening to: High and Mighty Color - REMEMBER

AGHH!! MY HEAD FCKING HURTSS!!!

Migraine or whatever. I believe it has something to do with my eyes. When Im really tired or I overuse them, I always end up suffering like this. I hate taking medicines or pain killers unless I cant bear it anymore so I usually just leave it until I fell asleep.

I didnt get to teach my student because my sister's being the worst a-hole. Uploading her new pictures are much more important to her than my business. Stupidfck.

Anyway, I went to see Gracie. Its fun hanging out with her and Rachel but what I just hate is the traveling time and traffic that kills me. I didnt get to stay with them longer because my boyfriend already warned me about coming home late. (Sometimes he's really a nuisance to my plans. ) But before I bidded them goodbye, we went to check out a near Thrift Store where I scored a pair of cute shoes! Its a wedged black Converse. Baahaaha! I wanted to buy something else but Im more afraid of leaving my wallet empty. >_<

And when I came home, I immediately called my guy pretending Im just tired and I arrived home 2hours earlier. LOL. Of course, I should lie or a war might start again. And while talking to him, I turned to watch NANA movie. Mom seemed to be interested because she was obviously bored and when I mentioned that Kenichi Matsuyama was playing a weird role again on that movie(she became a fan of him when she watched DeathNote movies), she sat down the couch and watched it with me. Funny how she laughs at Kenichi's scenes and agrees that Ryouhei Matsuda (played Ren on movie) and Tetsuji Tamayama (as Takumi) are hot. And this is the exact scene from the movie that I keep on watching over and over again:

aww, that stare's totally mesmerizing and Im melting! ~_o

GORGEOUS!

Aah, he played as the bassist and damn, that hair totally fits him. Most of the bassists I look up to were amazingly gorgeous. Saga from Alice Nine was definitely on my top list. Hehe. Well, Reita from the GazettE was indeed a pro but that crap on his nose always annoys me. Oh well..

Now my mom's asking for the second movie of NANA and more Japanese movies. Hahahaa! She doesnt like anime's but when I put Kuroshitsuji, she's watching it and laughs at funny scenes. Mom's being too nice lately(except when I ask for money) and its really unusual. I guess, she's starting to appreciate my endeavours. LOL.

And before I wrap up this post, I might dye my hair again. I hate how half on my front hair's still black. Probably its because my bandmate messed up first when he put the coloring creme to my hair unevenly. Ill ask my mom to dye her hair too, so the excess wont go to waste. Her hair's copper but it faded already and now its rust. Hehe. I know, using coloring cremes more often are very unhealthy and Im glad that my crowning glory isnt severely damaged yet. I might wait a week or two before dyeing it again.

YOSHI! That's all for now.

Good night! ^^

..trying hard

2009-08-22T03:31:00.008+08:00

Im chasing my own dreams like a smoke that vanishes quickly with the wind.

I love this picture so much. Domyouji Tsukasa and Makino Tsukushi are just perfect for each other. I couldnt agree more with this pairing. No other versions of Hana Yori Dango can win over them.

Just everytime, I cant help but put myself into Makino's shoes. We have similar opinions about almost everything. But the huge difference between us is her Knight in shining gold suit, Domyouji and his undeniably dependable minions(LOL). A rich guy falls inlove with a commoner, then they fought every hindrance who tried to break them apart but still, they won at life. What a fairy tale.

Matsumoto Jun have been one of my fantasies. Damn, his smile is just captivating. I dont care if he's too skinny or his hair is permed. I want him to marry me and lift me up, like that! >_<

................................

Agh. *rubs temples* thinking about such things gives me headache.

..can i help?

2009-08-22T02:44:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Morose

listening to: Paramore - Ignorance

I dont know what to do with you anymore! ;__;

Ive always loved you but you keep on making me prove that to you as if I never made you believe I was feeling more than the same. *breathes out*

Why do I have to bother myself posting this kind of shit? I dont even know. Seriously. Ive been bothered. Days after days, its just getting worse. My relationship with alot of people seems faltering. Now I feel all alone, even more. This might sound really emo, but I do feel like Im shouldering every shitty problems myself. There's no one to talk about it, either. So I just keep on running away from it by forcing myself to another's company.

He always gets me wrong. My bandmates are usually not interested in my opinions, so as with my friends. What makes me happy doesnt even make any sense to you.

If Im a bad person, you dont like me
I guess I'll go, make my own way
Its a circle, I mean cycle
I cant excite you anymore..
Wheres your gavel? your jury?
Whats my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life.

..otanjoubi omedettou, suki-chan!

2009-08-22T02:32:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GRACE!!

Im sorry, I dont know how to make fancy banners like you do and Im sure you're extremely busy right now. Im still hoping we could bang in each other soon, or maybe later this afternoon? LOL. Well, Im pretty sure, I could never afford those stuffs you want right now as a gift, since your poor BB, Gen, have always been a shitbrick and broke. >_<

Anywhat, Im wishing you all the best! Good luck with your Midterms and Finals! ^o^

I love you, always.

edit;

I just found out that THE KIDDIE will release a new single soon! *A*

In the span of 3 months, they'll have 3 new Maxi Singles! (whut?!)

Okay, here: (a post from SR: JRock UK Updater)

THE KIDDIE's newest maxi-single, titled Soar, is due to be released 2009.10.17 in two types. A limited edition which will include a CD and DVD and a regular edition including a CD only.

Tracklist:
01.Soar
02.Hontohane
03.Beaming (Regular Edition)

DVD
01. Soar [PV]

Another maxi-single, titled BLACK SIDE, is due to be released 2009.11.04, also in two types and the third maxi-single, titled Poplar, is due to be released 2009.12.02, also in two types.

..i cant fix you, i cant save you

2009-08-20T20:26:00.006+08:00

current mood: - Cynical

listening to: Alice Nine - Kiss twice, kiss me deadly (I love the bassline on this song)

Oh hai. *waves*

Finally, Im starting now the promised long-ass post.

Well.. seriously, I dont know where to start. Ive got too much thoughts running through me now. More likely, Ive been bothered with a couple of problems.

Just recently, Ive been having non stop fight with my boyfriend and I cant take another strike from him, anymore. Sometimes, he's really stupid and I hate how he cant seem to comprehend with some things.. things that are too petty to quarrel about but it pisses me off much until I cant control my enraging hormones and drop the call. (Yes, we rarely see each other anymore, so we just talk over the phone and those conversations are always filled with annoyingness. I might add.)

My sister's always a bitch. That cant be helped anymore but what triggers me is when everytime she says; "you're my problem! your face and your voice! you're existence irritates me!" Well, I havent mentioned yet how she manages to yell even to Grandma, Mom and Dad. She's just the worst. I dont know what to do with her anymore. Im at ease when she's not around.

Though Im glad that so far, Im getting along well with mom, dad and grandma. My parents even accompany me to the nearest Thrift Shop yesterday where I scored myself a couple of good second-hand clothes and they're for only P20 each! (that should be around $ 0.45) And Ill be reconstructing the clothes so it'll look better. ^o^

On the other hand, me and my bandmate had a little misunderstanding today. Well, he pissed me off so our supposed practice was cancelled because of me. Ugh. Anyway, it'll get better in no time, we cant let this commotion last for a day. Damnit. We are a band and we have dreams! Ughhh.

Anyway, last Tuesday (August 18), I spent the whole afternoon with Lea. She always makes me laugh thats why I always have fun hanging out with her. What I love about her is her sense of humor and her way of accepting things. So she treated me to a nail spa for pedicure where I had french tips then to a huge slice of pizza at Sbarro.

yes, those are my toenails. ^o^

Lea, reading Maxim magazine (gay issue) LOL.

see? well, at that point in time, I asked her to check the wifi on her phone.

Honestly, its my first time to eat there so I have no idea what those huge pizzas' tastes like. I just randomly picked one only to find out its tuna. LOL. Good thing it tastes good and I can never say no to a pizza. Ahaha! I had fun eating there basically because of their Basil and Oregano condiments. xD I wanna go back there! Agh. It just sucks when you cant afford those tasty but damn expensive slice of pizzas. >_<

Another update: I dyed my hair twice in a span of 3 days. O_o

The first one was with my bandmates. Melvin, our great guitarist, asked me to dye his hair like Kim Hyun Joong's from Boys Over Flowers so we used the Light Copper. And since I want to get a new color, I agreed. I swear, I did my best to cover his hair with the creme and when I thought he did the same, I was hopping happy when we got everything cleared. But ugh, I checked my hair the next morning only to find out that he messed up with my hair! >_<

Good thing I bought 2 coloring cremes. Im left with Copper which is kind of reddish brown. I asked my mom to do the job and she agreed. Heh. Now Im copperheaded! LOL. Though I cant really say its the best, but I cant wait to see it on daylight! ^o^

Hmm.. what else? I think I already babbled too much. My Korean student was absent tonight so Ill just watch Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge for awhile while waiting for my bestfriend since she asked me to let her stay here tonight. And speaking of Korean student, I might get new students soon! Im scheduled to introduced myself to the employer and all I just need are confidence and fluent English skills. Weee~ I cant fail on this one.

ANNNDDD!!! ALICE NINE! *squeals*

If you havent seen the preview of Alice In Museum, then you dont know what you're missing! Alright, here's it:

Oh shit. I just fell inlove with Tora and Saga mooreeee. I cant stop watching this over and over again! I almost died on the part where Tora's face expression looked he was raped then showed Saga's naked bodyy! (I mean, shirtless.) Exploding with awesomeness + hilarious. Shou's starting to look old for me though, but I still love that guy. I love Hiroto and Naoo too! And LOL at Ono-san dancing like an octopus! xDD GAHH! I LOVE ALICE NINE! *fangirling to extreme*

I swear, Ill make an Alice Nine shirt, soon! *smugs*

Okay, I swear, Im almost done.. No, Im already done. ^o^

/bricked

2009-08-20T00:33:00.003+08:00

Ah, gomenasai minna-san!

Bad blogger award goes for me. I know.

I wanted to flood this blog with too much happenings in my life recently, but ugh~ why cant I find enough time? When Im already online, the internet's fucking up until it disappears and then comes back again, its really irritating. And when Im waiting too much for the internet connection to come back at its normal rate, Ill be too tired or my sister's already kicking me out from my throne. WTF.

Anyway, I often update my twitter, so you might just want to check that if you're wondering whats up with me.

Hai, thats all for now.

I TOTALLY SWEAR, ILL MAKE IT ALL UP SOON! *peace-u*

..whut?

2009-08-17T09:29:00.003+08:00

I was too lazy to update this shit though I must say, alot of things happened to me already these past few days, I just cant find enough time for me to rant and post an entry. Actually, my eyes have been hurting when I stay online for hours. Its my fault. But ugh..

Anyway, I swear, Ill make up everything tonight so expect a long-ass entry lataarr. ^o^

..wasurenai~

2009-08-12T04:26:00.004+08:00

current mood: - Giggly

listening to: SCANDAL - Shojo S

First, I have to let you know that Im watching Junjou Romantica for the 4th time. I cant really watch it as often as I want since, err.. my mom goes berserk whenever she sees me watching streaming videos believing that it causes so much commotion aka lagging with her online gaming. ugh. So Ill definitely just go look for the dvd copy of it, probably this weekend. ^^

Anyway, Im quite in the good mood basically because I just started teaching my first Korean student for English lessons and Im watching Junjou right now. LOLOLOL.

But seriously, I did felt bad for what happened to Jasmine You, Versailles' talented bassist. I must admit, Im not a fan of guys who wears too much makeup and lolita dresses but this VK band was REAL good. I just pay more attention to their music than videos or whatever visual.

Gone too soon.

Anyway, lets move on a brighter side..

I just started my first English Teaching Class and so far, I did a good job for a first-timer! :)) The student liked me and she's really nice, so everything went well, except that her mic keeps on dying so we couldnt talk in a smooth 30-minutes allotted time. Now, Im quite confident that I can already handle a class so Ill be asking for more students. Yayy!

And since August fast approached, my formal review classes would start soon, so Ill be VERY busy. Nursing, Teaching, Band, Jrock, Yaoi(LOL). It'll be quite hard for me now to stay longer online, or maybe, stay up late since my lazy hours would be replaced by either studying or practicing with the band. Oh well.. I miss complaining about how busy my life is anyway. Hehee.

Oh shit. Its already morning, literally. I have to run to my bed now before my mom kill me. xDDD

Ohayo gozaimasu, minna-san! (^o^)v

..put shounen-ai on a cage!

2009-08-09T20:52:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Sore

listening to: Alice Nine - Sleepwalker

OMGZZ!! Sleepwalker PV!!!

*hyperventilates* ITS HEAVYY AND DIFFERENT FROM HANA!! *hyperventilates*

OMG. OMG. OMG. I love Shou with that hat and on that cage! OMG SAGAA! OMG TORAA! Oh shit. I cant breathe! *A* There's too much awesomeness in this PV.

I admit, Ive been outdated on Arisu's blog so this PV really surprised me. I didnt know it'll come out sooner though Im aware that there'll be a follow-up for Hana. Aahh.. I really love Alice Nine.♥

And its all thanks to Edohsama's blog. Im downloading now the Hana Single Type A & B as well. (^o^)//

Jeez, if I didnt read Edoh's blog updates, I might be posting gazillion of rants here. I was about to write senseless stuff again but yeah, I feel better now inspite of this massive headache thats trying to knock me off.

Anyway, I wanted to babble about what happened to me the past few days but since my sister's being a bitch and berserking again after I did her a favor awhile ago, I guess, Ill just do that lataar. Ugh. Kill joy.

..nani o shitara ii ka wakaranai

2009-08-06T13:19:00.002+08:00

current mood: - Anxious
listening to: alicenine. - Mugen no Hana

Im still quite down. Ive been trying not to take each teeny tiny bit of negativism seriously. Fuck sorrows! Fuck everything that makes people down! ~~Fuck that!~~

Gomen ne. I just cant stand another new day be ruined by someone.

My birthday turned out okay before the day ends. But still, I didnt have that much fun due to exhaustion and lacking of food. From the moment I woke up that morning, my mind's telling me to start cleaning up and plan what to do for the night's guests.

I got yelled and didnt had breakfast. What a nice way to start the day. So I just cleaned up the living room, kitchen, dining and my room. I was dead tired till afternoon. So I rest for awhile waiting for my mom to give me cash for food budget. She only gave me enough for 10 persons. Wow. It was raining hard and yet, I still went to market. I went back home and started cooking. YES. I did everything myself. No one helped me. My friends then arrived and they're begging for food. -_-

When they came greeting me, I told myself, "its alright now". They played poker while watching a movie. They all stayed up till morning. I went to bed around past 5am.

Other people's birthday are rather fun than mine. I just wish, on my next birthday, Ill be having fun too without getting mad at all. :/

I didnt even get to take pictures. WTF. >_<

Anyway, tomorrow night, my band will be performing at some Bar somewhere in Quezon City. The said performance will be recorded live. I just dont know when it'll be ready for public listening. LOL. Aahh, Fernando.. not sure if Ill bring him with me since he's too big and heavy for me. Ugh.

And yes, this entry ends now.

..satsugai!

2009-08-05T04:50:00.002+08:00

Birthdays are overrated.

..unfair

2009-08-03T23:22:00.002+08:00

current mood: - Gloomy

On my birthday's eve, I got depressed, humiliated, frustrated, angry, kicked from the computer and cried. Was that even fair? I wont be going anywhere tomorrow. If friends would be coming over then that would be good. Ill just treat myself tomorrow by cooking something that would make me feel better, at least. More likely, a comfort food. *shrugs*

I injured Fernando and I felt really bad about it. The owner of that huge bass got disappointed and told me that it'll be alright for him, but for his sister who paid for it, only God knows. So I was thinking of just buying that guitar from them. I didnt realize I already made numerous scratches on its side bottom which made me more depressed. Damn. I was too careless. ;__;

So my problem now is when I can afford to buy him. Im geddam broke that I cant even buy stuff to prepare for my own birthday. Ugh. This is more frustrating!

My eyes hurts now. It was long time ago since I last cried because I tend to resist the heavy feeling before, I just cant take a hold of it anymore.

Just one good news arrived today. Grandpa would be coming home soon, probably after a month with a laptop! So thats the only thing that makes me feel a little better. Ive always wanted to have one, though, for sure, it wont be just mine, but at least, there's something I can use which is more handy.

But on the other side, Im still scared that he might get disappointed with me not taking the Licensure Exam last June. My friends who took it, made it and they're now registered nurses. Im being left behind - thats another thing that frustrates me now. I thought it would be easier for me to study if Ill have ALOT of time ahead, but yeah.. for the past 4 months, nothing productive happened to me. Im not even opening my book until last night. Damn. Im such a bad student. -_-

Now, Why am I even alive? *sighs*

..raging hormones at its best!

2009-08-03T01:56:00.002+08:00

current mood: - Amused

I just cant resist to post this new scans of my (very) good-looking boys. xDDD And Im still the same for them. I mean, my raging hormones wont let me down everytime there's a new stuff about Arisu. Hee!♥

(click the pictures for HUGE-ER size)

Alright, I must go to bed now. Sweet Dreams minna-san! :D

..tiger prawns are love

2009-08-01T23:23:00.007+08:00

current mood: - Tired
listening to: alicenine. - haru, sakura no koro

Im too damn lazy to talk/type. Ill just post a sequence of pictures that happened to me last Friday. Damn, its already August 1! My frustrations are getting worse! >_<

just click the picture for larger view. :)

That whole day was FUN. I just hope same thing would happen to my birthday. But Im guessing alot of them cant come since most of them have to attend either work or school. So yeah, Im expecting a lonesome birthday. Oh well..

..whichever you prefer

2009-07-31T10:48:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Giddy
listening to: Fall Out Boy - You're crashing but you're no wave

PARTY LATER, TONIGHT! :D

Ohayo!

Jeez, Ive been a prisoner in this house. Seriously, I didnt go anywhere this past few weeks except that day when my family went to church's celebration.

Anyway, my former classmate will be celebrating his birthday, so it should be fun! Poker fun, them getting wasted again and me reading FHM. HAHAA! The friends Ive had in college were still the same as now so its cool, though somehow, alot of us have changed, the bond's still intact. :D

But before the partayy, my friend/neighbor, invited me out and I couldnt disagree because of Burger King. LOL. Its his promise to treat me after my graduation but since he's too busy and broke, today is the only chance he found. OMGZZ!! I cant wait water my mouth again with those uber delicious grilled burgers! xDDD And then, we'll watch a movie. Yayy!

Im soo feeling good when I woke up this morning, basically because of the plans I have ahead and my sister already left for school so there's no unnecessary commotion. LOL.

Alright, Ill go take a bath now. (^o^)//

O__O

2009-07-29T23:55:00.004+08:00

WHAT THE ~~FUCK~~ IS

YOUR PROBLEM WITH

ME??!!!!!!!

..this clouds are never expected

2009-07-29T23:35:00.002+08:00

current mood: - Irritated
listening to: Lindsay Lohan - Edge of Seventeen

My life's peaceful when my sister's not around. Seriously. Everytime she's on her hospital duties, Id be jumping around the room that we're sharing. Sleeping soundly in my bed or whatever. But since she already came back from her 3days-duty, Im in the middle of the war again.

She always starts it, though sometimes I do but my only fault was noticing her wrong doings. I am her big sister so I believe I have the rights to at least, remind her to not leave her stuff anywhere. Her bed's messy so as everything she uses, she just throws them anywhere when she's done using it then she'll curse me if one of it gone missing.

She yells at me telling me how stupid and narrow I am for not understanding her tired body and spirit just because I told her to put her used uniforms properly in the laundry basket.

I often cook the dinner because mom was too busy lazing around in front of the computer, concentrating on her stupid online game. No matter how we all hate it, my mom wont listen to anyone, not even to her own mother or husband. So, it cant be helped. She wants to live her life like that, then so be it. Thank God, I already know how to survive from this mess called life.

Anyway, some of my friends who took the Nursing Licensure Exam, passed. They freaking passed it! Agh. And Im fucking jealous. >_< Jeez, I just hope Ill pass through it like them with just one take. That board exam was really crazy, some of my ex-classmates failed though. The whole process of applying for the exam, not to mention the torture-chamber-experience of reviewing that Im sure not even 1 didnt complained about it, I totally know how they feel right now.

Okay, I must end this entry now because the biatch is tearing me again with her curse. I might die soon. Fuck.

..in the maze without an end

2009-07-28T13:08:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Annoyed
listening to: theGazettE - The Invisible Wall

That song from gaze is just perfect if you're feeling bitter or angst-y. Why? Because I feel sorry for those culprits and persecutors who keeps dissing my religion's approved national holiday.Well, they should even be thankful that they could at least relax for a day from their busy lives. Im just one of those proud members who would defend my beliefs.

Anyway, yesterday celebration of my church's event was cool. Zillions of members showed up and I felt special, more likely to favorable treatment from the traffic jams to food shops. And at the stadium, though mom, grandma, Jessie and I had a real hard time to pass through the gate, I was moved with the hymns the huge choir sang before the program started. I used to be in my locale's choir before but left when I started attending college thinking that the chorale's practice conflicts my class schedules. And so, I miss singing songs about praising God.

Surprised? Yes. No matter how bad my mouth is or even my actions, Im still a humble follower. I was raised in a family which is an active members of the church, so yeah.

I didnt get to take enough pictures because my sister was being a bitch, not letting me use the camera for camwhoring. LOL. Plus she decided to join another company during the event, so I didnt get my hands on capturing the mammoth crowd scene. xDD

On the other hand, I didnt know why I keep forgetting watching Kuroshitsuji and I just remembered now. Damn. Sebastian was hot. Haha!

I just woke up awhile ago, so I havent washed my face yet. *hides face*
Imma go clean myself up then Ill try to update this entry later if there's something else. :D

..run this town, dirtyyy

2009-07-26T22:52:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Full
listening to: Kugimiya Rie, Kitamura Eri & Horie Yui - Pre-parade

Oh hai! :D
Its my religion's anniversary tomorrow!
HAPPY IGLESIA NI CRISTO DAY! xD
It was official, tomorrow's a holiday! So every 27th of July, members of the church will have some sort of privileges from random places around the country and same goes for those, all over the world. :D

And so, the celebration for North Manila District would be held in a stadium, I guess there'll be some famous local stars coming, but yeah, Im not interested at all. *shrugs* I was even assigned to be the First Aider on the event. -_- I thought of not showing up by my family might be coming so.. dunno.

Anyway, it was my grandma's birthday yesterday but she decided to prepare the food today, and I gave her a cake roll. Dulce de Leche was surprisingly good. Kind of tastes like Brazo de Mercedez, just different type of bread. ANDDD! I made White Spaghetti! Dang it, baby! I AM A GOOD COOK! xDDD Me and my boyfie wont stop eating! Haha! Everyone seemed to like it, too! So yeah, gastric juice in my stomach's probably having a hard time digesting all the sweets and pasta Ive ingested. xDDD

Ill also cook some for my birthday, that is if my friends will come over. :)

Uh, tomorrow might be a big day for us, so I should be snoring by now. There's still white spaghetti left and I cant wait to have it for breakfast! xDD

Oyasumi nasai~

..because im really really lame.

2009-07-26T00:06:00.001+08:00

I swear, Ill have a more decent post tomorrow. >_<

..amai koibito

2009-07-24T03:09:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Stressed
listening to: Misono - Kojin Jugyo

Well, as promised.. here's my picture with Fernando. LOL.

He's really huge, right? I dont get it why Sean picked him. Hahaha! He owns this giant and Im just a mere commoner who borrows stuff. Ill get my own guitar sooooon! And Ill practice twice as hard then beat Reita's skillz! LOL.

PAIN. Thats his serious height, almost same as mine! hahaha! Forgive the hideous face, I just couldnt take a better picture. >_<

Anyway, I want to go to Japan.. like, right now. What's their current season there btw? Im seriously cursing the weather here! Its making me feel weak and sick! Hot then cold. WTF. Even in the earliest morning, it feels like the sun had already risen. -_-

Uh, oh well..

By the way, I seriously feel that Im the only fan left for Alice Nine. Everyone else keeps talking about different bands so I dont have anyone to share my jumping hormones with over Shou, Tora, Saga, Hiroto and Nao. Ling, where are you? xDD

..nobody but you

2009-07-23T02:04:00.002+08:00

current mood: - Frustrated
listening to: Mika Nakashima - No Answer

Well, my fingers kind of hurts right now from practicing mad riffs and scales on bass. My bandmates keeps on pushing me to do complicated stuff like that on this bass guitar which is almost about my size, so the frets were wider and the strings were thicker, enough to torture my tiny hands and shoulder strength. Its geddam heavy! Believe me.

Ill try to a picture with Fernando(yes, we named the guitar from its brand. Boo!) tomorrow and post it here. LOL.

Anyway, Im planning to change my current blog background. I love Uruha but I feel like getting a different face to paste there. Id feel violated if Ill put Ruki. Hahaha! So Ill just decide between any guy from Alice Nine or Mika Nakashima. Im not obsessed, I swear. xDDD

ANNNDD!! MY BIRTHDAY'S ONLY 12 DAYS AWAY?! o__O
Wow. Time really flies by that freakin fast. Im very much broke so I dont know yet what to do for my day, plus it'll be me and my boyfriend's 2nd year anniversary on the day on 5th. Still no plans. How boring. >_<

..ima made no tokoro

2009-07-22T03:40:00.001+08:00

current mood: - Giggly
watching: Alice Nine - Hana PV
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
FULL VERSION OF HANA PV IS OUT!!!
*fangirls then dies*

*points at Saga raping Shou's ears!* *squeals*

Ahh, this just one of their best videos! I love how the song's both a bit heavy and melodramatic. And did anyone noticed Saga playing an acoustic guitar? THATS JUST SEXY! And WTF, Hiroto! I was beyond fangirling when he started his solo! I left my jaw dropped from start to the end of this PV. Wow. Yes, they indeed, wowed me. They just did an amazing job, once again! :D I cant really wait for the single to release!
*coughs**leakitprz**coughs*

OMGZ. I need to compose myself now, really. I think I was a bit late already when I found out about this but the heck! I even actually ignored about this update on Edohsama's JRock devoted blog, thinking thats its only about Hana Comment and such, but yeah, Im soo glad that I didnt sleep yet and insist on checking up JRock updates. Jeez, its already 3:19am on my clock now and Im still very much awake! Thank you Alice Nine for bringing my hormones back to life. Bahahaha!

Seriously, Im still a bit down about how I suck on bass.. more specifically, on our last gig where I practically ruined the whole 19 minutes I was infront of the crowd. But out of embarrassment, I was motivated enough to practice more and get better. I even had a little serious talk with my bandmate, Sean which is on vocals and advised me a couple of tips that somewhat helped. :) Thanks, dude!

On the other hand, I keep on forgetting about preparing for the part-time job. Im still not in it since my friend wont let me talk to her boss until I prove to her that I can handle a decent and proper English Class. I suck on conversations, really and my head keeps blinking blank. So pretty much, thats what I need to improve and study more about proper English and such. I need motivation on this one, too! Please? I have my skype ID there. xD

Anyway, Ive been also downloading songs from random JRock bands which is really cool. Though people here cant really get my obsession about Jmusic especially Visual Kei. But yeah, its not like they can interfere with what my ears want to hear anyway. LOL.

Oh, and Mika Nakashima, I fell more inlove with her. Just so you know, Ill be more willing to be a lesbian for her! LMFAO. xDDDDD Im thinking of getting her hair, like on this one.

I really miss my long hair, so I would just probably wait for my hair to grow longer and just chopped it off whenever to get that same style or if that is Im still rooting it that way. ;p

Oh, jeez.. Im really starving now. I should be having breakfast already! LOL. Nah, Ill go to bed after this and uh.. get bedazzled in my dreamland with my Arisu boys. (^o^)v

..hai! hai!

2009-07-21T03:35:00.005+08:00

YES, NEW LAYOUT THOUGH IT SEEMS SIMILAR TO THE LAST ONE, TRUST ME, THE CODES ARE NEW. AND IM KEEPING URUHA-SAMA BECAUSE HE'S JUST BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING BEHIND MY ENTRIES. xDDD

ANYWAY, THIS SITE IS STILL UNDERCONSTRUCTION. BUT IM DEAD TIRED NOW. SRSLY. SO ILL JUST SETTLE THE REST TOMORROW OR AS SOON AS I GET ENOUGH MOOD TO WORK MY ASS ON THIS.

IMMA GO HIT THE SHEETS... NOW! *poof!*

..oh, i would never admit that i..

2009-07-21T01:26:00.006+08:00

current mood: - Sleepy
listening to: Paramore - Fences (The Final Riot live)

Oh hai! JRock whores out there! Come out now and fangirl with me! xDDD

Well, I havent talked about other JRock slash Visual Kei bands here besides alicenine. and theGazettE, right? Yes, I am that devoted to those 2 Gods of PSC. LOL. Err, who wouldnt love the boys and their music? *sighs dreamily*

Alright, lemme start with what Ive been listening to recently..

SuG - Pretty colorful, eh? I dont know the members name but.. Aaahh.. why this guy on the left side have to resemble Shou-sama and Saga-chi?! Okay, I like their music though I havent heard alot from them yet.

Lycaon - I like their song, Chains and Collar but somewhat pissed with the PV whenever the camera's focusing on the drummer's. I dont really get why it had to be pink hair and what I cant tolerate is how he smiles behind while hitting the drums looking like Patrick Star. Ugh. But yeah, the music is still likable. :)

Vidoll - pretty decent costumes and makeup, nice music. :)

The Kiddie - This photoshoot of them totally reminds me of alicenine.'s RAINBOWS era. xDD And yes, Yusa resembles Shou, too! Ack! O_o But hey, I love their song and PV for elite STAR. So much for cuteness. Hee~!

Ill dig about more these bands later.
Well, I guess, that all for now. I still have alot to brag about that Im just too lazy to check for their pictures, plus Im already tired and sleepy now. So erm.., ja' ne!

PS: I just wanna THANK those girls I just bloghopped and linked! Lets keep up the good work! (^o^)//

Please dont hesitate to recommend more JRock/VK bands to me, Ill be more willing to get my player infested with Jrock's awesomeness. :D Just kindly leave your thoughts on by tagboard. ^^

oyasumi nasai!

..sorrow made you

2009-07-19T12:29:00.007+08:00

current mood: - Okay
listening to: alicenine. - Mirror Ball (Vandalize Ver.)

Hello boys and girls! (or if you're inbetween) Its really my pleasure if you're reading my posts.

Well, honestly, Im not really in the mood to write anything but since I feel that Ive ignored updating my blog for days, it should not be tolerated or else Ill get used to it until my abandon the blog itself, though I dont think that will happen. *shrugs*

Anyway, first off, an update about my recent gig. Well, I almost ruined the whole performance and I embarrassed myself infront of other musicians there. Its not that I care about performing infront of other people, its just Im worried about how I keep on forgetting chords and my fingers tends to get stiff that even my strumming sounds fucked up. I feel so damn small and embarrassed after performing 4 songs. I even forgot to remind my folks to at least take a good picture of me while playing and this is the most decent my boyfriend got.

Err.. yeah, I wasnt facing everyone because of how embarrassed I am. I couldnt let them see my face so I even wore a cap. xDD Well, if you want to be convinced how I ruined and awful my performance was.. here's a video:

THE VIDEO WAS REMOVED BY THE USER.
(Err.. my bandmate removed it, though I still have a clip on my Facebook acct. I cant put a link here, so yeah, Ill just ry to retrieve a copy of the video and upload it again.)

This was taken by Sean's sister, so forgive the part where she shamelessly fangirling over her brother's singing. LOL.

So now you saw how I deserve the rotten tomatoes. Ugh. Good thing, no one threw at my face as soon as we ended playing. Jeez, I hope I wont see the other bands who saw me performed there because they totally know how I keep on messing up with songs. ;__;

EDIT;;
I left this entry in draft mode so.. yeah, I forgot to post this last Sunday.

..bang!

2009-07-16T12:38:00.001+08:00

YES! URUHA AND theGazettE

IS MY NEW ENDEVOUR!

xDDDDDD

..oh glory!

2009-07-16T10:08:00.007+08:00

current mood: - Scared
listening to: Arashi - We can make it

Gig tonight, baby!

Yes, I do. It'll be at 9Mile Bar - Kalayaan Road, Quezon City. :) Im actually not expecting anyone to come for support since none of my friends seem to be interested. :(

Well, its my second gig already but Im still disappointed how no one really cares about what I want to do. Its not that Im demanding for them to come, its just that... dont you think that its unfair? Alright, I know, Im not that good yet, but does that mean its not worth to watch?

......

Whatever. Ill just stress myself overthinking about this shit.
I guess, Ill just have to do my best with or without you.

On the other hand, the sky's pretty dark right now and its raining a bit hard. Probably, because of storms coming in and out of the country. And I just noticed how night hours ticks faster. I mean, The sun sets off around past 7PM, then rises at past 5AM. It feels really weird, since sunrise usually happens by 6AM and sunset by past 5PM. Ugh. Whatever. I guess, it has something to do with timelines or more likely, the end of the world's coming. *thunderstorms*

O__o

By the way, I already got the Pondori Game.

But err.. I dont really get it. I mean, I dont know how to play this right. The only key that works for Pon's head to jump was #5, I dont know what else to do.

And when I made him reach the 5th pink-cubes-or-whatever-that-shit-is which took me ALOT of minutes for him to get it there and just a blink of an eye when fell down and went back to the lowest ground this thing appeared..

You got it right, GAME OVER. And I dont understand what is written there. Can some genius translate if for me? I think this just a mobile game but yeah, it works on my flash player so I tried it.

Uh.. kay, gotta go.
(you should all know that Im still bad at blogging. A lame-boring person, that is.)

EDIT;
I was thinking of talking about a couple of Jrock bands that I just started listening to for a new entry, but I guess, Ill just do that some other time. Prepare for new rants, bbs.

..the melancholy

2009-07-15T18:22:00.002+08:00

current mood: - Blank
listening to: THE KIDDIE - elite STAR

theGazettE's DIM was AH-MAZING!

Yes, it fucking leaked and I LOVE IT! Thank you very much Edohsama for posting it on your JRock devoted site. :D It may be bad for the music industry but what can I do? I who have nothing? Ugh.

Anyway, Ive been.. err.. REALLY lazy to update this blog. Been busy with the band and my new work. I mean, not really since I havent started anything yet, Im still learning and getting myself used to this job. Its online teaching and I bet I already mentioned about this in my latter entries, right?

By the way, Yamato Nadeshiko's back on tv! Yayy! And its currently airing right now, so Imma go watch it.

Ill just update more probably later.

..you're always taking it with a heart of stone

2009-07-12T00:36:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Determined
listening to: Aiko - KissHug

I finally have a computer in my room!

AGAIN! Aahh.. it always feels better when you're not surrounded with other customers from a computer shop, right? Ive been begging my dad to put a computer in my room but he always resists because it will affect our shop's internet connection or whatever. But like what Ive mentioned on my previous entry, Ill be working part-time as an online teacher for English Language on Koreans. My dad cant have any more reasons to take this computer back in our shop anytime he feels like it.

My bestfriend just got interviewed by the employer a little while ago pn Skype and I heard everything they've talked about. The employer was also Korean and she's really pleasant to converse with, so I hope Ill do good when its my turn. But first things first, I still have to learn alot of stuff and issues regarding this work, my bestfriend would in-charge with that, so its cool. Instead of lazing around all day infront of tv, this is much better than doing nothing and being yelled at all day. xD

BY THE WAY, my band will have another gig scheduled on July 16. The actual performance will be recorded for free, so its gonna be cool though its pressuring me more since I have to do best. Err.. I dont really have no idea when I can be atleast good at playing the guitar, because I keep on sucking at it. Ugh.

Oh, and my birthday's in about 3 weeks! Yayy! Though I hate adding a year in my age, it cant be helped. I still dont know what to do for my birthday so as with our anniversary. Jeez.. being shitbroke just sucks the most. >_<

PS:
Ling, when can I catch you online? ;__;

kyaaaaa!!!!

2009-07-09T02:39:00.003+08:00

OMGZZ! Alice Nine's PV preview

for their new single, Hana!!!!!

I just fell inlove with this guys more. Aaahhh~~
I really cant wait to see and hear the whole thing! So as with theGazettE's new single. :))

Woooh~ EARGASM FTW!!!

..with such confusion dont it make you want to scream?

2009-07-08T23:08:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Sore
listening: Allison Iraheta - Give into me (cover)

Well, this entry's supposed to be a payback to everything I missed. But ugh, why do I feel soo lazyyy to even think about typing down a decent post? >_<

Well, honestly, I did my own Michael Jackson marathon yesterday. Reminiscing his music and everything. I just couldnt ignore the fact that it really affected me, too just like how every human in the world felt devastated with the news that he is really gone.

I dont care if you hate him or whatever. Im a fan and I used to be a really big fan of him when I was a kid. I grew up with his music and it played a big pard in my life. He inspired me to sing and dance and caused my hormones to go up and down. When he went here in Philippines for a tour, my dad record the whole concert for me and thats where I appreciate and respect him more. Admit it or not, his songs are really inspirational, something to wake people up with their wrong doings. Everyone knows how he became miserable but he tried to fought those demons within him. He might had indecent issues about his personal life but that wont change the fact that he's still a remarkable artist no matter how ruined or scary his physical appearance was.

Im not saying this because everyone seems to do so, or so I thought.. I just want to let you know that death would really come knocking to our lives without notice. I feel bad because he's now getting all the recognitions and shits now that he's gone. Alot of punks even used the oppurtunity to sell stuffs about him and my mom was one of those who bought a copy of one of his concerts which I might watch later. *sighs*

On the other hand, my band have a name already. Err.. I dunno why we end up with this kind of name but yeah, its.. Lovestre.
Feels awkward, eh? I know. Its actually my fault for insisting my joke them. Well, from how its sounds, its "lobster", so the joke was changing "lob" to "love". LOL. And so, the official and first appearance of us as a band would be this coming Friday. We'll be performing as a guest band on this production and such. I just hope my fingers wont shit on me on the actual night of performance. Ive been disliking the crowd especially when I know there would be a lot of eyes towards me. Thats why I always feel weird and different whenever people look at me. Another reason why I cant look into a person's eyes (except my guy's ofcourse.)

Anyway, me and my guy just celebrated our 23rd monthsary just like what Ive mentioned on my last entry. We went to this amazing theme park and I somewhat got obsessed with crazy rides that'll make you soaking wet, and when I mean wet, that includes my underwear. I was feeling all itchy and irritable when we're about to go home.

Now here are some pictures I picked out from Flickr.

Amazing, eh? ;p Im too lazy to post up my own pictures since most of them consist of my annoying big face. :/
Well, Im bragging about this because thats my first time to go there. I never had the chance to experience all the thrills and headaches after each ride until last Saturday. :)

By the way, my bestfriend offered me a part-time. Its online teaching of English Language for Koreans. I thinks its really cool since we're gonna do it as homebase. Like, Im just gonna prepare a nice working computer on a room where unnecessary noise is forbidden and of course, internet. But I still have to go through trainings and such until the company that provides the students approved of me as a teacher. Alot of people who reads my blog says I have a firm grip on english language, though I still feel uneasy because writing is different from orally speaking. But since Im planning on getting a job, this is a good oppurtunity for me to atleast earn something for myself and study at the same time. I just hope it'll work. So help me keep my fingers crossed. (^o^)v

So.. Erm.. I guess I ran out of thoughts already..

..i am a material girl

2009-07-05T23:53:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Tired
listening to: Boys Like Girls - Love Drunk

Why yes, Im listening to BLG's new single while waiting for Britney Spears' MV Radar to buffer. xD

Anyway, I know, Ive been neglecting this blog for the last couple of days, or is it already a week? I sometimes update on Twitter though. Well, due to my lazy-fat-ass, Id rather sleep all day or watch DVDs than indulge my eyes with too much radiation since I tend to always forget to keep distance from the computer's monitor, no wonder why my left eye is starting to get all shitty on me.

And besides lazing around, Ive been going out lately. Either Im hanging out with my bestfriend or boyfriend, or practicing with the band. I even had a massive date with my guy last Saturday along with my friend, Lea at this amazing theme park called Enchanted Kingdom. Ill just discuss about this later on, maybe on another entry since Im really tired to post pictures and stuff.

And before I must end this non-sensible post, I shall not forget to greet my favorite Alice Nine member..

Otanjoubi Omedettou, Shou-sama!♥

Please remind me that he is a guy. Jeez, from the first moment I saw him, I fell inlove already in an instant. He's really geddam beautiful. I dont care if he strut his gorgeous ass in the ghey-est way and wear tight pants. He makes me really happy when he smiles and updates his blog. He'll be forever adorable and amazing for me. Please continue creating great music with the band that Im grateful of who I am now. I love you, Mr. Kohara Kazumasa.

Im gonna celebrate your day tomorrow with a good mood and eat nice foods. :)

And lastly, which I swear this is the last part.
Me and my humble good guy were celebrating our 23rd month today as well. Im really happy for this day's current occassions. Must be happy for the rest of the week and forever. Ill try my best to not let my biotch sister ruin my mood everytime.

Yokatta. This entry should end here. :D

ps:
that Britney video isnt good, so as the song. >_<

..i used to know you so well

2009-06-29T00:46:00.004+08:00

current mood: - Stressed
listening to: Detroit Metal City - Satsugai

I wanna watch mild yaoi with tons of eyecandies right now. *pouts*

I feel like Im hella stressed from doing..actually, nothing. Or maybe Im just frustrated to focus seriously on studying and get mad guitar skills at the same time. And since I want to do both, I ended up lazing around all day watching DVD.

Anyway, I just found out that Paramore's gonna release a new album soon. The official album cover looks pretty boring though. I even tried to look for some clips for the sample of new songs or whatever. I found a couple of them on Youtube and for some reason, I just dont feel like listening to them.. maybe just today since Im not really in the good mood but what's hitting inside me is that I must be tired of listening to Hayley's voice now or something like that.

Ugh, I dont know what to write anymore. I totally feel like shit right now too plus the extra hot weather's pretty irritating even at midnight, so it boils me up to nuts. *sighs*

..its a joke that nobody knows

2009-06-27T06:30:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Hungry
listening to: the GazettE - LEECH

Ohayo gozaimasu~!

Look how oily that face is! Thats how I normally look every morning. I dont wash my face after getting up, the first water that will splash on it would be when I already take a bath or wash my mouth.

Err.. I know, thats not really pleasant for starting the day, but Ill let you on something.. I havent been sleeping yet. Yesterday, I hanged out at Rachel's along with Grace. They showed me a couple of goofy videos slash the other side of the gazeboys hoping that it'll make me appreciate Reita. LMFAO. Well, I dont really have anything against him, I just dont like his face, because err.. he reminds me of my neighbor before who keeps pestering me with his corny lines thinking that he'll win my heart. But he totally gave up now and what kind of pisses me off was, I dont like guys who looks like a gangster or yakuza.but I still respect him as a musician and since he's a bassist, he's actually the one my eyes are focusing on whenever I watch their videos performing and he's really good. :) BUT STILL, that wont change the fact how the hanky on his nose makes me laugh. xDD

Anyway, the band Im currently playing with would be having a gig SOON. It'll be my first time and Im freaking like shit! No, more likely, nervous. Because basically, I dont know what Ill do when I hit the wrong notes or when my fingers tripped since the songs we'll be playing were quite hard and needs extra effort on switching from the first note to another. Ugh, I wish I could trick it though. :(

One more thing, I already took a picture of the hair I have now.

The brown/rusty part were the hair at my back, so pretty much, that how it looks like but the colored hair isnt really obvious unless I tie it up or whatever. I guess, Ill stick with black hair for awhile. Gracie asked why I dyed it black since haircoloring cremes tends to make hair turn to orange when its really black or maybe it has something to do with chemicals mixed.

I guess, thats all for now. My body's cursing me now for abusing my energy so much. I might woke up around after lunch already, or maybe by this afternoon then Ill be watching animes! Yay! *claps* Its either Detriot Metal City, Vampire Knight or that-shit-I-forgot-the-title. :)

Nobody's going to miss me, right? Hah. Okamai naku~.
*jumps to bed*

..otanjoubi omedetto sexy beast!

2009-06-24T23:06:00.010+08:00

current mood: - Lazy
listening to: We are the Fallen - Bury me alive

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SAGA-SAMA!

I love this picture of him so much thats why
I didnt bother to make a birthday banner for him anymore.
PLEASE SOMEONE, SUE THIS MAN FOR
BEING SOO SEXY AND GIVING ME PERVYY THOUGHTS!

And so, I did something to celebrate it myself. :) Though, I know its not even half of what other fans did for his day, and mine might would be the cheapest but the hell I care! I had 2 cupcakes and a mug of milk tea. :) I was having a good time for myself until a bitch came behind me and started to ruin my mood and trashtalk me again after ignoring the fact that she's wearing my top that time without even asking for my permission. My sister's such an angel, isnt she?

So here's my picture having fun with the cupcakes. I even made myself soo fragrant while imagining that Saga himself would eat those cupcakes with me then beg to make love with him because I look so hot in sweatpants. xD

I didnt go anywhere that day. I woke up past 11AM again so I canceled my bass-practice since Im too weak and penniless to even go outside plus Im hearing those old peeps nagging around the house again.

Anyway, I found out that Carly Smithson(my favorite American Idol contestant) got in a new band called We are the Fallen. The 3 other members were originally from Evanescence along with another guy who plays for Disturbed and Kelly Clarkson. I always knew she'll end up in a rock band or something. And as I thought Evanescence had fallen already, I went to check their official site and myspace for recent news. Here's what I've got:

Will the real Slim Shady please stand up?
6/19/2009
There's some pretty weird stuff flying around right now and I'd like to clear up some confusion in the press. As our fans already know, Ben Moody left Evanescence in 2003. Evanescence came out with a follow-up to Fallen in 2006. It was called The Open Door and it debuted at #1 on the Billboard charts and reached platinum status in just over a month. The Open Door has sold more than 5 million copies worldwide. We're currently working on new material that I'm extremely excited about. I believe that to make great music you have to give yourself the freedom to evolve. I don't see the point in making the same record twice, so I always want to challenge myself to make something better, stronger, and more interesting than before. That takes time, but it's worth the wait for me. Hopefully, it will be for the fans too. Look out for new music next year...

-Amy

Pretty much, just like what Amy said, the band is still existing though I noticed that there's no information about band members anymore. Maybe they're working on filling up the gaps and creating new music.

On another news, that Swine Flu virus succesfully invaded Philippines. I think the confirmed patients were about 500 already. School's are closing down for awhile including my sister's which made me go nuts because more probably, she'll be bitching around the house and make my days miserable for the whole 2 weeks. Ugh. Painful. ;__;

My school's now affected too but classes will resume as soon as next week. Good for me so I could still escape from hell for awhile. *sighs*

Err.. I know, this post is getting longer than I thought and the bitch were trying to kick me off here but I wont give in. Bahaha!

Okay, I swear this is the last. I just want to put another picture of the guy whom I believe could make me forget about everything and anything once he put me down on his bed from his arms and get down to business. Oh jeez, I love his face there and his shirt and his hair. Wow, Im totally having a massive Sagasm right now. xDD

Im a sad horny dreamer, indeed. (^o^)//
*super dirty thoughts pouring in*
**evil grin**
***melts then dies***

..young and sleazy

2009-06-24T03:12:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Crappy
listening to: SS501 - Because Im stupid

MY HAIR'S GONE JET-BLACK AGAIN. ('A')

UGH.
I feel different and frustrated. Well, basically, I had to dye it black because Im attending my friend's regular class. So yeah, I did seat-in and pretend that Im a regular student but before entering the building premises successfully, I dont know how but the guard immediately noticed my hair when sunrays striked to it. So he passed me to a lady behind him which is a Guidance Couselor, confiscated my ID and asked why I have this kind of color on my head. I just smiled and asked when I can get my ID back. She told me to meet her at the Guidance Office after lunch. It felt really weird basically because Im already a graduate student so no matter how much offense or violations I make, I wont have to worry about it anymore since I dont have grades and reputation to take care of.

My friend was laughing at my face because she thinks Im an idiot. She's like.. "whats up with you? are you stupid? why you still want to go to school when you're already a graduate? dont you hate attending classes before?" and it hit me. Well, yeah. I do hate school before and still is. I just miss listening to the professor's lecture and its also the only way I know to escape from chores and naggings at home.

And so, I came back the next day to retrieve my ID but with a condition of dyeing my hair black. I dont want to lose my school ID so I decided to half-heartedly do what I have to do. Though half of my hair at the back still hazel/chestnut/rust brown, I just feel different now that what I see in the mirror isnt my beloved 3-shades-hair anymore. :(

But then again, Im sure of myself that I cant stand my hair this black for long, so maybe, after a month, Ill dye it back to hazel or chestnut or mahogany or burgundy, I dont know. I just want my hair to have color not as boring as black. ;p

..die! you sick vampire! diee!

2009-06-21T23:52:00.007+08:00

current mood: - Geeky
listening to: Misono - Speedrive

Well, I feel like sharing this uber awesome creation by some random dude on blogspot though I saw it first on Facebook. So some genius guy found someone who can totally beat Edward Cullen's ass to his face! Im totally moved and so I just fell inlove with Lelouch. xD

EDWARD CULLEN VS. LELOUCH LAMPEROUGE!
(click to see the original entry)

A normal guy would say: “I love you, baby!”
Edward Cullen would say: “You are my life now”
Lelouch Lamperouge would say "You will be my Queen."

Normal Guy would say: “I think I'm falling for you”
Edward Cullen would say: “The Lion fell in Love with the Lamb”
Lelouch would say: "You are the reason why I'm bringing peace to the world"

Normal Guy would say: “You hair looks like a haystack ….go brush it!”
Edward Cullen would say: "Your hair looks like haystack…but I like it”
Lelouch Lamperouge would say: "What haystack? Your hair is just fine."

A normal guy would pick a random song from a random artist and dedicated to you.
Edward Cullen would sing you a song he wrote for you while playing the piano.
Lelouch Lamperouge would find a way to get your favorite band to sing for you live.

If you died a normal guy would find another.
If you died Edward would kill himself cause life without you isn’t worth living.
If you died, Lelouch would start a rebellion to avenge your death.

As you left the house a normal guy would say: “Bye. See ya!”
As you left the house Edward Cullen would say: “Come back to me love”
As you left the house Lelouch would command you with the Geass so you will stay.

As you come back to the house a normal guy would be watching TV and wouldn’t even notice.
As you come back to the house Edward Cullen would be welcoming you by playing the piano with a song just for you
As you come back to the house Lelouch would have the largest pizza in the world served for you.*

A normal guy would wait for you to make him breakfast.
Edward Cullen would make you breakfast everyday.
Lelouch Lamperouge would get a chef to make you meals for the rest of your life.

While you were both out for dinner a normal guy wouldn’t keep his eyes off the sexy waitress.
Edward Cullen wouldn’t even notice the waitress was a female.
The waitress is working for Lelouch Lamperouge. He doesn't care.

A normal guy while driving would keep one hand on the wheel and one hand on the radio.
Edward Cullen while driving would keep one hand on the wheel and the other attached to yours.
Lelouch wouldn't even be driving. He can always get a driver for you as he sits next to you at the back.

While far apart in different places a normal guy would say: “I miss you”
While far apart in different place Edward Cullen would say: “It’s like you taken half myself with you”
While far apart in different places Lelouch Lamperouge would say "We own this country. You can get here right now"

A normal Guy wouldn’t care or notice if you had nightmares.
Edward Cullen would sing until your nightmares went away.
Lelouch would get you a KNIGHTMARE.**

A normal guy buys you flowers and chocolates.
Edward Cullen buys you a car.
Lelouch Lamperouge can give you a country...and possibly name it after you.

Well, honestly, I used to not give a damn about the (animated) Code Geass since Im not into wars-and-rebellion-kind-of-stuff. But after reading this fictional comparison(yes, I know, its fictional but what the heck!), I dont know what has gotten into me but its like I found another Prince Charming waiting for me in my dreams. Hahaa! Ofcourse, this kind of thing shouldnt be serious, but just recently, Ive been having love-mess dreams with random Japanese Actors or characters. Its weird that I dont even meet my boyfriend in my dreams. LOL. So anyway, now that I would like to know more about Lelouch Lamper Rouge, I might buy a DVD copy of that anime as soon as I get the chance. :)

And since Ill have an early class tomorrow till lunch then bass guitar practice by afternoon, Im not sure if I could get enough energy to go online before bedtime.

I might be eating seafood ramen again tomorrow night while trying to focus on studying. LOL.

So, yeah.. that should be all of it for today. Gotta hit the sheets! :)

Oyasumi nasai~♥

..im so much better without you

2009-06-21T00:30:00.007+08:00

current mood: - Good (aw, I love how Tora's face soo attractive on this mood. ^^)
listening to: theGazettE - Calm Envy

OMGZ! the Gazette's PREVIEW

FOR THE SONG THE INVISIBLE WALL

GOT ME EARGASMS!! xDDD

I soo want to see and hear moarrr! ('3')

Anyway, its already Sunday which means I have to attend church worship services again. Well, its not that I dont like it, I just hate how some people stare at me as if there's a huge it covering my face. I feel small, y'know? Well, I dont really think I look different at all.. sometimes I come to think that they've seen my pictures online and compares how hideous I am in personal. Its kind of irritating sometimes. :|

Another thing, my sister would move to a dormitory near her University SOON and I cant wait any longer till I cant feel her annoying aura anywhere around the house. It would be a nice relief if she'll be out from my sight during weekdays thought it would still bother me how she'll whine and nag for her allowance. Well, that cant be helped, she's always favored since she tends to be Ms. Know-it-all. She even commands as if she's our highness, for fuck's sake! I would be really glad if she'll disappear once in a while. I hate how she keeps on using my personal stuff behind my back. I hate dealing with her anymore. The more I try to ignore her, the more she'll irritate me. -_-

On the other hand, Ill be busy starting this Monday. So less blogging, less ranting. Though I would still keep on looking out for my Virtual-Lovies. I should've started studying seriously right before graduation but yeah, Im such a sick-lazy-psycho-ass kid who would never do that. I always do things at its last minute. I know, its bad but yeah.. I SWEAR, Ill try doing it better. :)

And lastly, I just feel like putting up my latest ~~camwhored~~ picture. So please be nice and dont complain on how undeserving it is to be put in public. :)

..baka!

2009-06-18T20:10:00.006+08:00

Internet wont ~~fucking~~ work nicely on me! UGH!
Its been 2 days since the connection's hella slow. Its really irritating me. I cant log in on my accounts properly. Ive been sitting here for about an hour already and yeah, it took blogger an hour to load before I got here on "create new post". Im just not sure how long will it take again before this entry get posted.

Anyway, I just finished watching Last Friends. Serious but good story, indeed. Although, at first, I thought its boring but I still end up liking each characters. :) And since Im sort of in the good mood today, I want to resume on watching Kimi wa Petto.. but since that I mentioned about internet's fuckedup system, I cant.. or atleast, wait till its all cleared and working perfectly fine. -_-

Thank goodness I have a copy of Alice Nine PVs and concerts here. My raging hormones were still kind of at its lower level.

..we try to chase the smoke on this candlelight

2009-06-17T02:16:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Sick
listening to: Skid Row - Monkey Business

Well, right now.. Im waiting for the video to buffer, Im watching Kimi wa Petto this time. Its a quite serious story though I tend to laugh at some scenes because of Matsumoto Jun. He makes me giggle and feel happy. Im almost done with Episode 1 though, and watch the rest next time since its already laaateee and Ill be going with my grandma this early morning to Divisoria, Manila to look for my sister's uniform cloths.

Anyway, school just recently started but I still havent started anything besides practicing bass. And talk about bass, the band wants me to work harder since they just decided to perform on a gig already.. It'll be my first time to perform live(well, I cant count my 18th birthday's performance as a gig since its quite messy and unprepared). So, we'll be preparing a total of 6 songs: 3 compositions and 3 covers(Bon Jovi, Skid Row and the likes).

Yeahh, its quite surprising that Im doing this kind of music since Ive been into JRock and Pop for a long time. And since I mentioned Pop music, I just want to blog about how Ive been dancing to this song since the last week of April.

Its 2NE1, a Korean Pop Girl Group that have made it so far already. The song's called Fire and its really a catchy and cute song. Err.. I know, alot of people blogged about them already and since Ive known them for about 2 months now, I think, I should be doing the same thing. LOL.

On the other hand, Im still sick. Though the fever's subsided already, I still feel fuckedup because of this colds, sore throat and dry cough. I havent been taking any meds yet but I will go get some later.

So, yeah.. I might as well, go now too.. I NEED TO REST.
Yesterday was really tiresome, taking care of people who just passed out was both exhausting and gross. Now its my turn to get some good chilling. :)

..ewwyy

2009-06-16T00:43:00.003+08:00

Im here right now at my friend's house with other peeps from college. Ofcourse, they're drinking and I think most of them were tipsy already.. or if tipsy's the right word to define what they look like now. Ugh. My guy's here too.. he just threw up and its really gross. This is the first time I saw him throwing up like that while saying he loves me very much. Is that how drunk people really acts when alcohol overtakes their system? I dont get it. Maybe thats the main reason I dont want my body get a taste of that evil drink. Ive seen alot of people transforms into something inappropriate whenever they're drunk. How lame.

If you cant control yourself after drowning from alcohol, then might as well not drink at all.

Anyway, Ive been feeling quite bad physically these last few days.. the reason behind me not updating this blog that often. Ive been having serious migraines and now, I caught cough, clogged nose, sore and itchy throat, colds, and a slight fever. Some people thinks Im infected with Swine Flu already, though I somewhat think I might be, too.. but nahh.. I cant be sure yet unless my temperature gets worse.

So.. besides me lazing around all day infront of tv while doing Japanese-drama-marathon and sucking at bass guitar, nothing else happened on those days I missed.

Err.. alright, thats all for now. I have patient to take care of.
(Ughh dammit! This guy's pissing me off and disgusts me with the vomits all over him. >_<)

..glamorous sky

2009-06-12T04:12:00.004+08:00

I watched Nana (movie). It was good. Though the story's quite simple and the movie itself was 4 years ago plus Mika Nakashima's role is the type of person Ive always wanted to have as a sister, I fell inlove with it. I was moved like I always do whenever I watch either drama series, movies or animes. My whole world tends to stop and its as if Im part of what Im watching because I can somewhat relate to the main character's personality and dreams. I couldnt stop watching alot of Japanese stuff since its my only way of escaping from my own world's reality. But now that Ive come to end another one, I have to go back where things are. Ugh.

..you're just a ghost

2009-06-10T01:00:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Sick
listening to: Erika Sawajiri - Taiyou no Uta

It was the roar of the crowd
that gave me heartache to sing
It was a lie when they smiled
and said, "you won't feel a thing"

You're just a sad song, with nothing to say..

- Disenchanted, My Chemical Romance

I have sore throat and I hate how it makes me feel weaker.
I seriously feel like the weight of the world has got into my shoulders and my body feels really heavy that its even hard for me stand up for a couple of minutes.

And since Im doing bass for a band, its quite hard for me to have it both standing or while Im just sitting. Well, bass guitar was naturally heavy and how awkward that someone as tiny as me, playing it while the other guys in the band were literally guys and taller. Im sort of comfortable using that monster guitar though Im enjoying learning more. Oh well.. I just hope it wont split my bones while doing it.

Ughh. Seriously, I hate having sore throats! It practically ruins my appetite and energy. Its as if Im worst than a A-H1N1 virus infected person. And speaking of which, the number of patients are gradually increasing and its making me worried as fuck. Ive been kind of paranoid when Im outside the house, trying to avoid to catch a cold or even the slightest fever. Its really hard to tell if the person beside you right now is already the carrier of that infamous virus.

Anyway, my mood kind of lightened up after watching a couple of episodes from Lovely Complex. Its an anime with a cute love story. Though it also made me cry. Jeez, thats my weakness.. once I saw something that is very touching, no matter how random it is, Id be teary-eyed. I dunno why I cant help it, probably because I tend to put myself in those scenes and then Ill realize how Ive been so sad and hopeless.

I just wish this would end soon. Im really growing tired of listening to my own heartaches and complaints.Being all fucked up like this is just.. sickening, y'know?

(aghh. damnit. another rant.)

..fuckkkkk!!

2009-06-09T03:10:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Blank
listening to: Alice Nine - Q. (Question.)

Its been a week or so since I last had my entry here. I wish I could update this everyday but Ive been feeling really fucked up. Whenever I already felt the urge to write down something in here, Ill look for chances to get online, but whenever Im already infront of this monitor, Ill lose everything in my mind. Well, not really everything but all thats left was crappy rants and drama Ive been trying to avoid.

Ugh. This is really tiring. No matter how much I want to change for good, I would still be bothered with random thoughts.. mostly about how I hate the state where I am now. My family sucks. My life here with them sucks more. I wish I could get a life on my own now. Or is it running away? The hell I care. I just want some place where a day in my life would pass without being yelled and kicked behind.

I hate how everyday in my life, Ill be thinking over and over again what to do with my life. I feel so alone. Is this what it means to be an adult? Because if it is, Id rather go back to my mom's womb and never come out alive.

ps;;
I just signed up for Twitter. I guess it would be helpful this time for me since Ive been really useless and fucked up on typing down decent entries here.

..uhh.. yeah..?

2009-06-01T01:35:00.005+08:00

Now that Im already done watching Mei-chan no Shitsuji and just started reading Private Prince on manga, I somehow feel better now.. Life is a fuckign bitch - cruel enough to make you miserable and it cant be helped, Ive been down soo much that I even thought of just wait till someone save me. Im definitely wrong, because I should be the one saving my self from this insanity and as long as I stay being a lazy-arse that I am, nothing good would benefit me in the end. Therefore, Ill just endure every heartache and shitz that would come my way. Im pretty sure that there's no way YOU would help me as well. Everyone Ive come to tell about what Im suffering inside me either never really get my point or I havent opened up everything yet.. in that way, I just end up getting disappointed and it just hurts more.

Im a geddam pessimist but Im trying to be better. I havent seen anyone tried fitting my shoes and feel how complicated myself and my life was and Im not hoping anymore that anyone would. Ive already come to my senses and Im starting all over again to make up what I missed.

And for the record, I dont care about you anymore. You're just like everybody else, a selfish brat who wants everything just for yourself. I never thought Id say this, but, you're wayy loser than what I am.

On the other hand,

Now.. POKE me, bitchez!

EDITT;;
My myspace account was.. what?!
I rarely go to that site anymore but since I still have minions left there, I have to keep in touch though it takes forever for me to log in back. -_- But damn.. why the hell would my password get copied?! Ugh. Im trying to change my email, but it wont. MYSPACE SUCKS Y'KNOW?!

..im gonna fuckin explode!!!

2009-05-31T01:04:00.004+08:00

current mood: - Angry
listening to: The Veronicas - Change the world

IM SOO GONNA LIGHT

YER ASSES ON FIRE!!

God, you really are a bitch.

Dont fuckin start with me again! Im almost losing it!

..crazy moon

2009-05-30T02:10:00.006+08:00

current mood: - Sick
watching Mei-chan no Shitsuji

"Badtrip, Sir!"

My family and I went to this wedding ceremony of a family friend. It was all nice and since Ive been feeling quite good from the minute I woke up (hell yeah, Im already awake by 6:30AM!), I thought everything would run smoothly and fun till the day ends, but yeah, thats just what I thought.

Well, the wedding ceremony itself was really luxurious. They held it to a huge yet really beautiful church at Quezon City then proceed the reception to Patio Ibarra which is I could tell, a quite expensive fine dining restaurant. The food was good that I pigged out so much I cant take another spoonful of their tasty chicken-mushroom soup. Ive been having fun until they started this traditional garter-wearing-thingamajig where the groom will take off this garter from the bride's thighs then gives it to lucky single guy and yeah, you know the rest. So, the bride especially mentioned my name to participate and I couldnt hesitate more, though I have this feeling of hiding my ass off in the ladie's room but they already caught me and I couldnt escape anymore. I thought its just a simple garterxbouquet throwing thingo but they surprised me.. because when they already picked 10 ladies and 9 guys, they started this hug-the-guy-you-like and whoever left hanging will be the one to be put in shame, and unfortunately, it was me.

I hate how the guys and ladies known each other and Im the only one clueless about who to run to, so yeah.. the show must go on and they just basically, made fun of me. They blindfolded me and made me sat into this chair in the center of attraction. The emcee eliminated the guys by asking them questions and making me decide who got the best answer. I ended up picking the tallest guy and made him rolled the garter into above my knees. Then picture takings and whatevz. They said that whoever gets the garter would be the next couple to wed, I never believed that. It was all just a game.

I feel nothing but shame the whole time I was sitting there. I feel like Im the worst dressed and ugliest among everyone, especially among the 9 ladies joined that stupid game. Im almost crying as soon as I returned to my table and I feel really smaaalll. My sister even teased me to show Jessie what happened because she was filming me from our table. Ugh. The worst night, EVER!

Now, my heart's still pounding from regret and shame I just went through and Im feeling chilly inspite how hot the weather is. Feels like Im gonna have fever soon. ;_;

Im not really planning to update this much anymore since nothing special happens lately and I know, this is just a waste of my time because Im fully aware of how no one really reads my entries. Thank you and I feel like shit now.

..we survived from a supposed-to-be crime

2009-05-25T05:53:00.004+08:00

WE ALMOST GOT ROBBED!!!

Its just the bastard got escaped before someone recognizes him. Good thing my house is just a few walks away from our church where there are guards roaming overnight. I thought some guy just wants to pester me while Im busy reading a manga online, but when I asked him what is it, he sounded so serious and asks for my dad. And when I went outside to check, he told me that the guys guarding around the church saw a huge guy climbing up at the back of our house. I was stunned. Then dad talked to the guards and ran upstairs. I went up after dad had searched our roof deck. My uncle had his room there and he's already awake. I am very much awake since again, I slept at the wrong time. Im thankful that my neighborhood had people who never sleeps, like err.. me and my brother and his friends who just came home few minutes before the incident happened. I think it was around 4AM already. And since our house stands higher than the other houses along the road, plus some weirdos likes to stay all night across the street, they can somehow notice whoever's trying to climb up our walls.

I dont get it. We're not even rich to be robbed!
Jeez, people are just really desperate to survive the economic crisis.
Poor souls, may God bless you.

..you cannot even hear me

2009-05-24T02:38:00.004+08:00

current mood: - Depressed
listening to: Arashi - Believe (´3｀)～♪

I dont know why I included this picture on this entry, err.. maybe because they're too awesome and Im still amused how they managed to make themselves look even more lovely than any Japanese girls. xD

KOIBITO? Hahaahahaa!! Shou seriously looks like a nice and innocent girl here trying to persuade whoever took this picture. xDD And dont you just love Saga's hair? I actually planned to copy one of his hairstyles but Im too coward to chop my hair shorter. And since he's a famous rockstar, he can ask anyone to take good care of his hair for him. While I have to bother myself getting nice self-hair-regimens just to make mine look atleast fine.

Anyway, Im still down right now that Junjou Romantica's adaptation on anime was too short while I still cant get over each couple's romance, especially Mizaki and Akihiko's. But yeah, it cant be helped that there's no Season 3 yet. I guess, Ill just have to look for a manga of it to atleast satisfy my cravings. Still, I have to divert my overpowering hormones to another worth-fangirling/squealing jdrama/anime. I just started Mei-chan no Shitsujibut since the internet connection's being an ass on me, I cant move on to next episode. >_>

On the other hand, I finally made it err.. yesterday? to wake up as early as 5AM! LOL. Though I am soo hyped when I arrived early at school, I already felt soo sleepy after the 15mins. break, around 10:30AM. Reading and answering test papers never fails me to fall asleep. No matter how I tried not to rest my head on my desk, still FAILLL. *o*

And I hate how mom and grandma keeps on complaining when Im asking for my daily allowance whenever I go to school. They'd be like.. "why dont you just stay home and mop the floors?!" and thats when Ill rant and rage. Seriously, how can they interfere with my eagerness to learn? Damn. Im not getting any moral support here, atleast. I dont want to blame them but Im this fucking skinny because I tend to just save the penny Ill spend for food. Even my personal/hygienic needs, I provide them myself from my savings(not the bank account type of savings, just the normal cash left on your purse savings). And Im very pissed when I showed them my actual graduation picture where Im holding my supposed-to-be diploma but they simply just ignored me.

I know, this is very tiring, but DAMN IT!
Why do I have to be like this?
Its like every inch of me inside was ripped and stabbed senselessly. Im jealous of those people who can get what they want whenever they wanted.

THIS IS JUST ANOTHER RANT THAT IM SERIOUSLY TRYING TO AVOID BUT I CANT HELP BUT POUR IT OUT IN HERE. There's no one to talk to and this shit is the only thing who can never complain whatever I rant about. Watching jdramas/movies/animes are my way of escaping from whatthehell Im feeling. Maybe the reason why I get soo addicted and touched with those Ive seen, especially when one story ends, Id get depressed and frustrated. Frustation of having someone that can totally protect me from every single shit that could hurt me and provide beyond happiness feeling.. which is practically.. IMPOSSIBLE.

agh. dream on, bitch.

..addiction!

2009-05-22T03:16:00.003+08:00

aww, Akihiko Usami's my picture of a perfect guy.
(gomenasai, cant help it. xD)

..you can go higher and better

2009-05-21T22:57:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Calm
listening to: Linkin Park - New Divide

Congratulations to Kris Allen for winning American Idol 8.
Yayy!! Im soo glad that he nailed it! I would definitely be in despair right now if Adam have. Bahahaha!

Anyway, Im already done watching Bloody Monday and only 3 more episodes for Junjou Romantica. Jeez, that anime-yaoi just makes me feel good about myself. Seriously, I can totally relate to Akihiko Usami's relationship with his family. And the way he shows his love for Misaki is just amazing. He could be the most annoying yet perfect lover. Aww.. :3

With that, I might try watching another yaoi series. xDD
Japanese are just good making homosexual relationships, dont you think? Heh. The stories are more touching and amazing than the usual hetero which is cliche' already.

On the other hand, I actually woke up today with a raging mood since I saw my mom wearing my shirt and earrings. So Im like, having tantrums and all that shit but I didnt won. She managed to get away from me. Ugh. And almost everyone left the house except my dad but he's fixing the computers at the shop so Im practically alone at home and I felt better not until my sister arrived from school and yelled and complain to me for not washing the dishes. [note: she's 2 years younger] Told you, she's quite a bitch, so yeah. I started cleaning the house as soon as Im done watching Bloody Monday. It was really tiring plus the humid's pretty irritating and then my gorgeous boyfriend came. He handed me a rose. Hahah! And then hugged and ate the potato chips he brought for me. Its been 3 weeks already since we last seen each other and I missed him very much.

Overall, inspite of all those irritating treatment towards me from my sister and mom, Im okay now. Im planning to attend a review class early tomorrow, so I hope Ill woke up by then. :)

I know, I shouldnt be overthinking about everything because it just worsens the stress Im getting. Little by little, Im starting to grow as an adult. Though as much as Im spoiled with being lazy, I want to change that. I just hope nothing would come up tomorrow to distract my motivation right now. Heh.

<333

..nobody wins

2009-05-20T23:18:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Gloomy
listening to: Flumpool - Over the Rain

Why life have to be this hard for me?

..you might not want to read this, because seriously, this is not worth reading at all. But if you cared enough for me, you will.. I already gave you a warning. This is something that has nothing to do with you.

Ive been not-myself for the past few days. Ive been pre-occupied with so much things that I cant avoid overthinking about. The vibe of the song Im listening right now adds up to my not-quite-good mood.

Honestly, I dont know what the fuck is with me right now. I cant tell if Im just desperate, frustrated or anxious.. Well, maybe.. Im anxious to the extent that I feel so helpless. Not even a single decent and matured enough person to talk with about this crap that keeps bothering me which is currently running quite deep.. its like Im drowning in my own thoughts. Im trying to convince myself that Im just having childish thoughts and its pretty normal to feel anxious. But why do I feel like its ruining me already? Like, every piece of me was starting to fall off and I cant seem to pick myself up, atleast?

I somewhat opened up with Gracie last night and she made me realize alot of things but after the conversation, as Im trying to fall myself to sleep, my mind keeps overthinking again. Its really confusing. Mainly, on what time I should get up and what I should do for the day. I know Ive mentioned a couple of times already here on my entries that I feel so useless and that I need to do something about it. Its really alarming how my laziness wont stop overpowering me. Like, I would wake up at 6AM but eventually, Ill get up at around 12noon. Believe me, Im trying to change that since its not really healthy because mom wont stop yelling me for being soo useless. So far, Ive managed to start my day by 9AM, get my breakfast then clean the house. Im really trying to make up with all those weeks Ive wasted just lazing around the couch the whole day.

But.. ugh. Thats not really my point at all for ranting this much. Or is it me being pointless? I dunno why Im posting such things to my blog, probably because Im pretty sure no one really pays attention to my entries. Id be getting random views from here and other countries but I dont think any of them had read any of my entries. Oh well..

Im starting to go nuts again. Going back to what Im supposed to be blabbing about.. I feel so lonely. Yessu. Even in my own house, I barely talk to my sister because I want to really ignore her and her unbearable treatment towards me. My mom's too busy playing online games, dad was always not home, brother was a little stupid to talk to but we recently managed to get along on watching Bloody Monday and other doramas and animes. So overall, when Im not infront of tv, I either alone in my room, listening to my mp3 player or surfing the net. I cant load up my phone to text or contact my boyfriend because mom wont give me money to, *rolls eyes*
Pretty much, Ive got the lamest life ever.

Im guessing that this anxiety and frustration slash desperation would last till I got my hands on that damn Professional License for Nurses. AGHH!! My head wants to explode now just by thinking about the rough road I have to walk on. Yes, Ill just walk. No cars to hitch nor anyone to give me piggyback-ride. Im gonna hate this but there's no other way. Damn.

Will I survive this?
(I hate how I ended up talking about non-sense again.)
I hope so.

jeez.. this gave me quite of a headache.
>_<

..doki! doki! doki!

2009-05-19T01:57:00.003+08:00

Im done watching Maou. Damn! It brought me to tears on its last episode. Such an amazing story. Whoever created that had an awesome brilliant mind. Even its theme song keeps playing in my head non-stop! *o*

Now Im more than halfway on Season 1 of Junjou Romantica. Jeez.. I dunno why but I am soo touched with that yaoi thingo. The way of romance of the characters are different but really touching. I guess, Ive been on one of those scenes, too.. No doubt Ill get to finish watching this in 2 days along with its Season 2. Im only watching it on a streaming video so the internet connection has to be smoothly fast so there'll be no interruption while it buffers. And, the only time I could watch stuff like this is every after midnight. Now you can guess how long I stays up late. Haha!

Alright, gotta resume on my romance. xDD

..gheyy~

2009-05-18T04:26:00.001+08:00

OH NO!
IM WATCHING

JUNJOU ROMANTICA!

xDD

Hahahaha! I just realized its.. yaoi? OMGZ.

..you take my life

2009-05-18T02:09:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Frustrated
listening to: Flumpool - Over the Rain

Arent you going to ask me if I did everything I listed for my Sunday's tasks? Well, of course.. I FAILED! I woke up at around 1PM so basically, half of the day was wasted to bed. Ugh. I dunno why I always have deep sleeps, I mean, I dream alot and its like there's always weights pressing me to bed that keeps me from getting up early. Every morning Id feel the same way.. now how can I get better if that keeps interfering with my plans? *sighs deeply*

On the other hand, Im done watching Skip Beat! and only 4 more episodes for Maou. Both made an impact on me enough to make me love the story and characters.

Ikuta Toma's really gorgeous. No matter what role he portrays, I would still love him. Even Arashi's song keeps singing in my head! Now I wont stop dancing to its melody. LMFAO. But since Ill have to practice bass again later this afternoon, I might resume my DVD marathon on Tuesday. :)

Anyway, I already met Gracie and Rachel last Friday. We had fun though I didnt enjoyed Angels&Demons than what Ive expected. Basically, I didnt get the whole story but the parts that made me confused was already explained to me by a smartass friend. Heh. I know, Im dumb enough to missed antimatter's purpose and shit. So after that movie, we had our lunch then strolled for awhile at the mall then head to Rachel's DVD haven. LOL. I planned on getting romantic/comedy jdramas but I cant tell which is good. I cant bother the girls since they're busy looking for something else too. So I ended up borrowing Maou, Skip Beat and Bloody Monday and yes, Ive got another reason to meet them soon! HELL YEAH. :))

Now Im hungry. -_-
Gotta go for food hunting.

ja 'ne!

..give me a shot to remember

2009-05-17T02:41:00.004+08:00

current mood: - Hungry
listening to: YUI - Highway Chance (my blog's BGM)

IM SUCH A SORE LOSER.
I keep on saying such things that I cant do. I want to wake up early but cant help staying beyond midnight when Im online then ends up waking up at around 11am. Its really hard! But Im seriously trying. =_= Its just that Im a failure.

Alright, this time.. starting tomorrow. I SWEAR! Ill make myself useful..

......... DAMN! Why it has to be so freaking hard to be productive and useful?! GAHHH!!!! I cant even start reading my books and lay on the couch all day! >_<

Plans for Sunday:
9:00 AM - Church
11:00 AM - Lunch / TV / Clean my room
2:00 PM - Band Practice
6:00 PM - watch out for another house chore / nap / cook dinner
the rest would be.. - Come what may.

So.. I just hope Ill get to do those things in time.

..wowheyhideous!

2009-05-15T02:25:00.004+08:00

current mood: - Giggly
listening to: Incubus - Stellar

I have visible fringes now.

I chopped them myself. :) But since its on my eye level, it kind of irritates me whenever so I tend to cut the longer ones or whatever. Actually, I have them already since last Saturday. Im just trying if bangs would look good on me. And I think I still look like human anyway and I guess I wont be getting a new hairstyle for now. I'll just let it be since I want it to grow longer. Maybe Ill just use hair-rollers or whatever you call that is if I want to get my hair a little wavy or curly. I dont want to damage my hair more so no irons and of any sort. Though my boyfriend hates straight cut bangs like Katy Perry's on her Waking up in Vegas MV. *sings* "Shut up and put your money where your mouth is.." Heh. (oh jeez, I love her.) I already told him that I have them cut and Im not sure what his reaction would be if he sees me. We havent seen each other for more then a week now. :(

Anyway, Ill be meeting up Gracie and Rachel later! LOLWOOT! xD Strict girldate. Haha! Movie, mall strolling, fangirling, shopping and whatever. I dont know what else we'll be doing but yeah, it should be hella fun and Im excited already. :) Though I didnt get to save up from my daily allowance since I havent been attending review classes for a week now. Gah, blame my lazy ass.. Once I woke up with the television on, I wouldnt leave the couch until 2pm. Then tv again from 8pm to 11pm. >_<

Seriously, I havent been geddam lazy like this ever. I know, I should be reading my books instead but err.. I cant control my laziness anymore! @_@ = EPIC FAIL. But yeah, starting today, Im gonna be.. err.. better? Whatever. Ill just try hard to be useful for fuck's sake.

Alright, its getting late again. Laters.

♥♥♥

ps:
IS THERE ANYONE ELSE WHO HATES ADAM LAMBERT BESIDES ME? Damn! I have this terrible feeling that he'll win Americal Idol. PLEASE DONT VOTE FOR HIM! He's GHEYYY!! He sings horribly irritating! Ugh. Americans keeps on choosing the wrong talent. WHY?? -_-

..all she wants to do is dance

2009-05-14T04:20:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Determined
listening to: Kris Allen & Danny Gokey - Renegade

Hello there.

Agh. Its been days already since my last entry.
Ive been staying up late till around 4 or 5 AM but I didnt even have the guts to post anything on my blog. I know, pretty much, I still suck on this. Well, basically because Im busy redoing the pictures from Jeleen's birthday and since the computer has been mean and is still a bitch to me, I failed on updating this. Another [either] reason would be Im too tired to go online from an exhausting day.

Melvin, Me and Sean

Anyway, I just started learning the basic [bass]chords of my new band's composition. The guys were great except that I havent meet the drummer yet. They taught me this song which is not yet done, but the melody was cool. Its the jrock-ish composition Im talking about that they somewhat made for me. Haha! It doesnt have lyrics yet so Im trying to think of something great to contribute about it. We only used an acoustic guitar the last time since theres no bass guitar available yet. Probably the next time Ill meet Melvin[lead gtr.], he'll lend me one and Im excited to learn more. You have no idea how dumb I was the first moment they handed me the guitar. I was like.. "what will I do? Where's A? I dont know F#m!" Good thing, my mentors are patient and nice enough to understand how moron I am for forgetting everything I knew on playing the instrument.

On the other hand, since its already Thursday today, I have a scheduled girldate tomorrow with Gracie and Rachel. :) Hell yeah. Finally! The last time I hanged out with them was I think.. around October or November last year. shizz. And if my friend, Lea would meet me at the mall, she'll be lending me her Panic at the Disco DVD concert. WOOT!

The only thing Im worried about now is how fakkeningshizt-broke I am. Well, I still have some cash on my purse but definitely, at the end of that day, Ill arrive home penniless. >_<

Its been days that Ive been thinking about fixing my everyday routine. From waking up in the morning till I go to bed. I want my life to be organized because its been a month already that Ive been lazing so much around. I even think that my legs are shrinking because I just lay around hella much. So yeah, Im really determined now make myself useful and Ive got to be damn serious about this. Time is ticking so freaking fast! I dont have enough time left in preparation for my Board Exam. Gah. I dont want to stress myself more but I just cant avoid it.

And just like now, I am killing myself again. Its 5:15 on my clock. Jeez.. told you, time flies by that freakin fast. Now mom's kicking me off now and I need to hit the sheets.

School and church later.
Thank you very much.

xoxo

..tokkyooooww!

2009-05-10T03:11:00.006+08:00

current mood: Awake

At 3AM, Im still up with eyes wide awake while fangirling[much] over jrockers live performances. And these are my latest favorites. :)

PSC 2009 - The GazettE - Filth in the beauty

PSC 2009 - alicenine. - Velvet~♥

PSC 2009 - alicenine. - Blue Planet~♥my personal favorite happy song

SCANDAL - DOLL~♥because they're soo good and pretty
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They're just undeniably talented. SCANDAL was the type of band I would want to be with. I mean, I want to be like them but not in a copycat slash insecurebitch way. The new band Im with now consists of 3 guys and me. They're into rock-ballad-Aerosmith kind of music but they're okay with me putting up a little spice into the music they used to create. They even composed a jrock-like song for me, haha! Its cool. Cant wait to hear it, and see if I can sing along with it. LOL. I know, I suck hard on talents but what the hell! Music have been my daily therapy and there's nothing you can do about it if I chose to make one and blahh..

Anyway, a very close friend (Jeleen), was celebrating her birthday tomorrow, so more probably, Id be having fun with my friends and Im not sure what else.

Boo. I have to sleep now.
.......
....

..

..aaahhhh!

2009-05-07T15:39:00.003+08:00

Its been raining for weeks now. And since Ive been unintentionally watching local news, Ive been updated that a typhoon[besides knowing when Pacman will be back and watching TMZ while they make fun of Hatton, LOL] just came out the country's premises with a new one that just started hitting Metro Manila with so much water. And talk about water or more likely, getting wet.. here's something related to it.

Aaahhh.. dont you just love how this man rapes you with those looks? With that eyes and nekkid slash wet body, can impregnate me already. *giggles*

*0*

ediit;;

I just soaked my hair with olive oil. Why? Heard it was a good treatment for making your hair shiny and soft.. well, lets see if it'll work. :)

Anyway, I hate how it wont stop raining. My room's walls are really wet and its starting to get inside. When I accidentally touched it, its like a wet paint! jeez.. this thunderstorm can kill me. Im even afraid of getting wet because the water's freezing! Dammn. And what I hate more is that I have to wake up as early as 5am tomorrow for the review class. That means I have to take a bath using the running water which is hella cold as ice and we dont have a heater. Told you, Im very sensitive to cold and heat. >_<

Hope Ill survive tomorrow. *sighs*

..when they made me, they broke the mold

2009-05-06T23:48:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Confused
listening to: my heartbeat.

I joined a new band.

I dunno, if there's already a name but yeah.. new people to deal with, new music, and Im back to zero. Its like, Im a total loser right now, besides the fact that Im fucking broke inside-out, I even forgot already everything Ive learned on playing bass guitar. Even the chords I used to brag about, I cant remember them anymore. Told you, its all because Ive been experiencing information overload from the exhausting regular college days until now since Ive been trying to pick up everything from the start again in preparation for Board Exam. And you know what? BULLSHIT. I hate thinking about school anymore. All I can get was a serious migraine after coming out from the classroom where Review Classes are being held. Agh!

Anyway, Im still with my old band who have been on hiatus since my 18th birthday. I think that was the last time I played bass. My mates are too freakin busy with college as well and I cant blame them. And for that 3 years, I lost everything I knew about playing guitar. From basic chords to fast-switching notes. Im starting all over again. Thank God, my new band mates are being supportive and patient about teaching me and dealing with my schedule. I was told that they were preparing already on recording the demo, and you know the next. The guys have promising talents and Im just lucky that they picked me as soon as I suggested myself when one of them posted on Friendster's bulletin about looking for a new bassist. I guess, this is how my life's gonna change from now on. Atleast, I can finally make myself useful and since Ive been hating my mom for being such a mean bitch on me, I think I know where to run now when I needed somewhere to go. :)

Anyway, this guy from Sri Lanka is seriously obsessed with me and its fucking creepy! He keeps demanding and nagging me on things and hella wants to marry me! LMFAO. Im soo gonna hide from where the hell I came from even if it means digging a grave for myself just so he could not find me.

Damn, crazy people are just everywhere, even that Swine Flu. Who knows if the person beside you who just sneezed had the infection/virus already? Wow. This world's starting to KILL US ALL. So beware.

ps:
I seriously want a new haircut now. Sooner or later Ill chop this crowning glory of mine in uh.. a hairstyle that I never had in my entire life.

..you can only blame all your problems on my world

2009-05-05T21:10:00.002+08:00

current mood: ACHE OF ALL KINDS! -_-

Wow, didnt realize that my last update was 8 days ago already.
Basically because Im too busy attending the afternoon schedule of review classes that wraps up at about 8PM. So yeah, more likely, I arrive home at around 9PM or so and eventually, ends up throwing my things and myself on my bed. Its like, I just came back to my everyday lame life.. home, school then home again. And whats worst is Im fuckin broke as hell. Gah! Life's been treating me this way since day 1, thats why I cant blame myself anymore why Ive been comparing myself to those fortunate people who could care less about their expenses and shit like that.

Another reason for my absence is because migraine just attacked me for the last few days, I thought I would die right there. The pain's unbearable that I couldnt even get up to medicate myself. Im not sure how I survived, maybe because I would just let a couple hours of sleep would help alleviate the pain. *sighs*

-_-

Damn, Pacquiao's recognitions, fame and money is just OVERWHELMING. I even thought Ricky Hatton would beat his ass in a snap just like what Mayweather's been saying. But yeah.. surprisingly, he knocked Hitman before Round 2 ends. Its just.. Wow.

Err.. sorry. I dont even know why Im talking about boxers here. Maybe a part of me was just proud that my nation's fellow rocked and almost ruled the world last May 3. Alright, Ill stop talking about him.

Anyway, Dad just told me that we might lose our internet connection maybe today or anytime since he paid the wrong account the last time and he blamed me because he texted me that time when he's already in the process of paying the bills, asking me to check our account number and because he also texted the wrong number, I didnt received any text message. Damn. I asked him if the internet company can divert or whatever the payment my dad made to our active account number, but gah, I dunno. >_<

Actually, Im here right now at the nearest Internet Cafe at my boyfriend's house. The connection's freakin slow and Im not really used on paying for every hour Ill consumed. How uncool.

On the other hand, talking about my guy, as of this date, we're already 21 months together. I know, I couldnt even believe it. Time flies by that hella fast. good thing, I still have reason and motivation to go on with my life. Its the only thing right now that keeps me holding on. Burning love. Aww.. :3

Alright, I only have 5 minutes left. FAKKENINGSHIZT! -_-
Ill come back as soon as Im back home with our internet connection still kicking.

..god can kill me now, seriously.

2009-04-27T22:14:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Pissed Off
listening to: YUI - Summer Song

I had this super okay mood the whole day until this guy from Sri Lanka on Facebook pissed me off to bitz. GAH! I almost raged! -_-

*sighs*
*breathes in and out*

So, anyway.. theres nothing really much interesting happened to me today except that I just slept whole day at the couch then ate 3 meals in a row, woke up then ate a full plate again. And Im really surprised with my appetite right now, Im almost like a pig today but still wonders why I dont gain weight? *scratches head in confusion*

Oh well. Since I didnt make it on waking up early today to attend the review class, I will tomorrow. And uh, probably will hangout with some friends after. Thats how lame my life is.

*shoots self*

..you always find an escape

2009-04-25T05:06:00.009+08:00

current mood: - Okay?
listening to: alicenine. - haru, sakura no koro

Well, I missed a day on the blog world. But err.. thats as if anyone cares? Oh well.. I went to Bryan's Mom's party just last Thursday since I just realized, its already Saturday morning now. Wow. Time flew by that fast? I think I just sat here awhile ago while pimpin' my Facebook? @_@

So okay, my friends and I had a good/bad/okay/slutty time. Well, basically because, each of us randomly whines and ended up being all emo then we're all laughing again. I think the alcohol somewhat got into their systems, but duhr, exclude from those drinkers. Nestea Lemon makes me tipsy already. Hahaha! And of course, we did camwhored alot. Rochelle was our favorite to take pictures of since she succeeded on getting fairer skin, but the inside joke was, its too obvious that the treatment she used for getting fairer skin only woked on her face. LOL. My neck decided to get allergy that time, so yeah.

And because Im such a lame-ass and freakin broke, Jeleen paid for my fare on the way home. (Thank you, love!)

Anyway, I just got to borrow a DVD from Bryan as well. Its The Clique. I have no idea about its story since I dont read the book or whatever but I liked the movie. Mainly, because I can relate to it and the characters are a bunch of 12 year olds and they're soo cute and fabulous. :)) Secondly, I grew up imitating Spice Girls and so are the main cast.
I just recommend you to see it yourself, but if you're not into Mean Girls-like movies, then move on. Im trying to tell my opinion here.

Talk about opinions, Renaye and Gracie gave me a piece of advice about me asking about the hairstyle Ive been wanting on my last entry. Well, I still cant decide. Because if I wanted to get my hair exactly like that, then I'll be either required to get my hair permed first or suffered the high maintenance such as irons and wax. Gah! Im sucha lazy person and an extra habit for vanity cant fit in anywhere on my tardiness . *shrugs*
*is confused*
Ive been wanting to get a sort of wavy and short hair like so when I saw that picture while Im browsing for some hairstyles at random sites, it frustrate me more. *groans* WHATEVER!

Okay, this entry was getting longer than I thought, but I swear this is the last part. xD

I know, Ive been complaining of how useless I feel for the past couple of weeks and finally, I thought of something worth my time. Since my university offers review classes for those who will be taking the Nurse Licensure Exam this June, Ive planned to seat-in since its free of charge anyway. And hey, my tuition fee for my last semester there is still effective until the review class ends so yeah, I believe I still have the rights to attend the class and its the only way I know so I can start saving up again. I asked my grandma to get my new black shoes today, and woot yes, she agreed! (^o^)//

Alright, that is enough.

Ohayo gozaimasu, minna!

..because im bored

2009-04-23T04:15:00.003+08:00

Will this hair fit me? I need opinions.
Ive been planning to get my hair a little wavy and layered, but uh.. Im still unsure.

*o*

..exhausted tiger

2009-04-22T18:50:00.003+08:00

tired?

i would love to do anything to make you feel relaxed.
*wiggles eyebrows*

..you dont have the time

2009-04-22T14:48:00.003+08:00

current mood: ~~fucking~~ Lazy
listening to: YUI - Oh my God

So okay, I already searched from mysoju.com some comedy/romance dramas/movies. Hope I picked out the good ones. If you know something else that you want to recommend, please tell me. Ive been damn bored here at home, broke as hell and got nothing else to do since I dont want to face my books and get back to studying yet, yeah.. A dose of good watch might keep me sane.

Here are my line-ups. :)

Akihabara@Deep

Anna-san no Omame

Atashinchi no Danshi

Crazy First Love

Hotaru no Hikaru

Alright, I dont wanna get loaded so thats all for now. Its been raining hard these past few days too and it makes me even more lazier. LMFAO!

*shizzt!*

Im gonna go proceed watching this promising dramas. :))

..have you heard the news that you're dead?

2009-04-21T18:12:00.004+08:00

its been raining hard here..
i wanna do something but i dont know what it is.
i feel so blank and lazy and boneless. (wtf?)
and im pretty bothered with how hideous i look when im wearing my glasses.

jeez.. every-freaking-boring-day is driving me nuts!

please suggest something worth watching.. like japanese drama or movie. gah! now, Im hungry. -_-

..I can't trust myself with anything but this

2009-04-19T03:33:00.005+08:00

current mood: - Nerdy
listening to: Meg and Dia - Roses

I know, I look ridiculous..
So yeah, Im now officially a 4-eyed betch. Though I think my glasses frame's big enough for my face.. whatchuthink? Should I get a smaller frame or what? Everyone have told me already, I look old. Err.. Im not expecting any positive comments anymore.

So far.. not so good. Its not really comfortable to wear. Seriously. I didnt know it would be this bothersome.. jeez.. of all the people on earth, why it has to be me to have this damn eye problem?! Gahh!!

And since Im didnt went to that job interview Im talking about, I dunno now. Im lifeless. I suck. I fail. I might look like a nerd now but still, Im the laziest person in this geddam world! SCREEW YOU EVERYONE TAKING THAT BOARD EXAM! *I is yelling raggeee!!*

..like, duh?

2009-04-17T00:33:00.002+08:00

So gheeyyyyy!!!!

Okay, so Im done watching Oresama and I still dont know the hell that means. Or am I just stupid to realize since I already watched the movie? Darn.

Miyavi and his extra ghey gestures never amused me, not even a little. Though he's really good with guitars, but thats just it. He's soo ghey, he even kissed a guy in that movie, and when he would play the ball with that cute Ryuu kid, he seriously needs to be in handcuffs because the pedophile syndrome was obvious. Gah! I tried watching his PVs, listened to his music, hoping that somehow, I would appreciate his music, but dang it! I still dont get it. -_-

Shou can definitely shake his ass and liplock with any guy in the band and still, I would love him. But, why I cant like Miyavi? I tried already, for a couple of times.. but failed. Or maybe, he's too ghey for me than any jrockers I know?

Oh well. I wonder if there's a Miyavi fan reading this and would bash me afterwards? heh. Peace on earth, yo! (^o^)v

..whuutt?!!

2009-04-16T17:48:00.006+08:00

I is watching Oresama.

LOL.
....

...........?

WHAAAAT?!
GAWSHHH!!! WHATS HAPPENING TO ME?!

I dunno. Since Ive been feeling wickedly different today,
might as well, do something different oo. Heh.
I would still look for Tsuka-chi's movies later, ne.
And just to remind you, Im still not attracted to Miyavi. I just thought it would be fun to at least know him since I heard this movie's almost his half autobiography. There's nothing wrong with what Im doing, anyway, right?
Im sure, Tsuka-chi wont mind. Heh. (^o^)v

ps:

i feel so ghangstuh right now.. xDD

Im done with Ep. 9 of Gokusen and I already started Oresama.
And I cant help but post this because I totally loled on this scene.

FAIL.

and yes, Im spamming my own blog.
Got a problem with that, thug?

..what makes you feel so special?

2009-04-16T12:47:00.008+08:00

current mood: - Amused
listening to: Fall Out Boy - The (Shipped) Gold Standard

I woke up this morning with a good mood. It rarely happens anymore.

So I thought its kind of weird though its better than feeling all fucked up again. My mood have been shifting every freakin minute or it depends if something really amuses me, good mood would last up to an hour.

So okay, today feels different.
Basically, Im thrilled that Ill have to start wearing glasses tomorrow. I just went this morning to the Optical Shop for my lens and I can already claim it tomorrow. I have no idea if I could get use to it since I dont really wear something in my eyes for more than 2hours except eye makeup, you fool. And Im alarmed what the doctor told me yesterday since I went to seek an eye check up and he asked me if having an eye problem runs in my blood since my grandma already have a glaucoma, he's said that he saw something, i think in my left eye that is abnormal but he cant conclude yet what it is and that I have to come back after 2 months for follow up and monitoring purposes. After leaving the hospital, I feel like my life's going to change drastically. I dunno.. but Im worried. :(

Anyway, I planned on going with my friends to apply for a job at this prestigious hospital, called St. Lukes. Err, I dunno why I think its prestigious but oh well.. Right now, Im still undecided if I'll go. Honestly, Im not yet prepared physically and mentally. Said there would a test for us and I have no idea if my mind would be sane enough to answer those tests correctly. Plus that hospital's a major fail in distance.. its freakin 3hours away from my house! -_- so okay, I already changed my mind and Im not going. Crap.

But you know what epic fail means? Gracie already posted an entry about this idiot stupid-looking-pale-troll that fails sooo freakin much with her/his life. I cant even tell if he/she's human because seriously, everything that moron does was totally senseless and stupid. Some thinks its funny but majority's raging and is eager to burn everything about that betch down.

And here what the talented kid looks like:

and the link to the video - clicko!
[or better not, if you love your life.]

Seriously. Once you've watched the video, there'll be no words to explain but instead, you'll either wish to kill yourself or scream "RAAAAAAAAGGEEEEEE!!!!" after seeing how horrible and ridiculous that creature is. Good thing, the comments eventually made me forgot about striking that kid to fire and loled very much on the video's 7,600+ comments, why yes, thats how famous the creature is already! Gawsh. >_<

Alright, enough about horrible creatures. Im currently waiting for Gokusen to buffer. Im watching episode 9 again since I remember Tsukasa Tsukamoto starred there as an rebel ex-student of Shirokin High School.

You might want to see how ghetto slash gangstuh he looks like there. LOL.

and there's Shin [Matsumoto Jun] trying to feel Tsukasa's
breathe of manhood. Lawls.

So ghey, he even tried to rape his teacher in a broad daylight!
xDDDD

But jeez.. I cant help but still notice how beautiful he is no matter how he looks ghey and funny with that rose colored shades and blonde hair. xD Imma go look for other Tsuka-chi's movies after this Gokusen's episode. ;p

And oh, lastly, I bought Light Copper hair coloring gel again. Why yes, Im even tagging my mom along with it. Heh. Let's see if I can update this entry more later. (^o^)v

♥

..shake the glitters off your clothes now

2009-04-14T22:02:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Hungry

Im starving to death and I cant find anything edible here, jeez.. Schooldays' officially over and Im nothing but a shitbrick and extra broke right now. I seriously want to make myself useful but I dont know what to do. Im very much pre-occupied with random things I dont even know. Wow. Am I going crazy?

Anyway, Ive been nagging my grandma to get me eye glasses since my eyes are starting to make me worry more. A friend told me, its not really comfortable to wear glasses but what the heck! If its my eyes then Ill take the risk, or is it a risk? I dunno.. I know nothing anyway.

GAWD! I FEEL MORE DUMBER TODAY!

..i want to fly away

2009-04-13T19:15:00.003+08:00

just because Im gaga over Takashi Tsukamoto and Im obsessed with YUI, plus Taiyou no Uta was my favorite movie, I cant help but put them here. :)

And OMGZZZ!!!

*is hyperventilating*

..shitbrick.

2009-04-13T18:34:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Lazy
listening to: alicenine. - Discotheque Play Like "A" Rainbows

IM THE LAZIEST PERSON IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!

Seriously, I havent been doing anything useful and productive for a week now. All I did was just stay infront of computer for a minimum of 5 straight hours then eat whatever's edible then computer again or watch Smallville Season 8, or just sleep for 12hours. I would even forget to take my meals. Just like yesterday, I didnt have lunch and dinner. Today its already almost 7PM and I havent eaten my lunch yet. Ack!

Told you, I feel dumber at its worst. And jeez, I forgot to take a bath, dont worry fool, Ill take it probably before going to bed. xD

And because Im random, I thought of sharing how uncool my cat is. Err, he's not really mine, he was adopted by my grandma and eventually, became family's pet which is basically, a badass cat. He tends to scratch you once you touch him. Freak.

Oh well.

..I'm already dead however..

2009-04-12T22:49:00.003+08:00

current mood: - Frustrated
listening to: HIGH AND MIGHTY COLOR - Hot Limit

Why I still feel blank? Huwaaa!!

Last night, as much as want to babble and rant and update my blog with the most decent post, I dunno why, but nothing would pop to my mind what I should be typing though before I went online, Im sort of pre-occupied with what Ill be putting up in my blog. Gawsh. Is this how a graduate student should feel after a 4-years of non-stop schooling? @_@

I feel dumber than ever. Maybe, I really should start on making myself useful, more likely, getting a job or study and toast my brain + ass for my Board Exam. And yeah, since Im officially done with stressing-regular-graded-lecture-days, I is officially damn broke, too. >_<

GAHHH! I hate how money makes the world go round. No matter how my boyfriend tells me that real love is enough to be happy, my frustrations cant be helped with his optimism because I FREAKIN' NEED A NEW PHONE! *is getting more frustred*

I know, I said someone would give me a nice phone, but its taking longer than what I've expected! jeez.. That person's giving me a hard time, he even got into an accident and fractured his leg, but of course, I wont let his condition get in my future phone's way. Heh. Am I evilll or what? Oh well. Im just too excited to get my hands on new handset! Nuff said.

Anyway, I dont feel like talking about my recent trip but yeah, Id still try. So, the beach looks okay, the water was clear enough to trust your body dive into it, but SAFASDGADFG!!!!!!!! I dont know what it was but its like tons of tiny organisms biting meh! So yeah, Im all scratching every part of me just to relieve the itch. Good thing, a shower and antibac soap helped stop the dilemma. And since the sun's tooo freakin hot and once you soaked yourself in the water, consider yourself in a hot pot too, though the water's a bit cold.. Well, I had fun too, its just not as awesome as my last beach experience 4 years ago. *shrugs*

Oh, see? Im not blank at all. But err.. I started typing this new post at 10:49 PM, now its 12:10 MN. -_- Thats how fuckin slow my neurons are. Ugh. Betch.

Okay, Ive starved myself much now. Havent eaten anything since 4:30 PM. Wow. I look like a monster with these huge eyebags. Crap.

Alright.. I should disappear now.

*poof!*

Anytime, anywhere, I think about you.

Ahoy, tharr!

HOP IN!

say, its official.

hiatus

..frontman of my favorite VK band

..yayy! new post! *bricked*

..thy eyes are bleeding

..its just too much

..la la land~

..tiger's day!

..you say, i only hear what i want to

..you should notice that there is no other

..you should feel glad that Im still alive

..burned out to extreme!!!

*scratches head*

..you're taking too long to respond

..oh noesss!!

..kiss, kill, feel

..spit out and go

..trying hard

..can i help?

..otanjoubi omedettou, suki-chan!

..i cant fix you, i cant save you

/bricked

..whut?

..wasurenai~

..put shounen-ai on a cage!

..nani o shitara ii ka wakaranai

..satsugai!

..unfair

..raging hormones at its best!

..tiger prawns are love

..whichever you prefer

O__O

..this clouds are never expected

..in the maze without an end

..run this town, dirtyyy

..because im really really lame.

..amai koibito

..nobody but you

..ima made no tokoro

..hai! hai!

..oh, i would never admit that i..

..sorrow made you

..bang!

..oh glory!

..the melancholy

..you're always taking it with a heart of stone

kyaaaaa!!!!

..with such confusion dont it make you want to scream?

..i am a material girl

..i used to know you so well

..its a joke that nobody knows

..otanjoubi omedetto sexy beast!

..young and sleazy

..die! you sick vampire! diee!

..im so much better without you

..baka!

..we try to chase the smoke on this candlelight

..ewwyy

..glamorous sky

..you're just a ghost

..fuckkkkk!!

..uhh.. yeah..?

..im gonna fuckin explode!!!

..crazy moon

..we survived from a supposed-to-be crime

..you cannot even hear me

..addiction!

..you can go higher and better

..nobody wins

..doki! doki! doki!

..gheyy~

..you take my life

..give me a shot to remember

..wowheyhideous!

..all she wants to do is dance

..tokkyooooww!

..aaahhhh!

..yayy! new post! bricked

scratches head